It feels like forever since I've been here. A bunch of years have passed, then I come back and re-read what I wrote so long ago and it makes me laugh that I thought that what I had with any of you was the good one. And today I write this entry with a smile on my face because after 5 years he still looks at me with those bedroom eyes and I die a ( Read more... )

Turns out I didn't need California after all. Everything I was looking for was right in front of me. The hand to hold, the smile that brightens my life and fills my heart with warmth and love. I found my Edward. I never thought it would be possible but last night, I looked into his eyes and fell into heaven. Our relationship is so easy that we both ( Read more... )

...name a place, where the air tastes like rain and the sun shines like Sunday morning. You bring your laugh and I'll bring my sense of humor, and we can waste days one week after another. Turn it up, turn it up I'm falling, turn the music up and fall in love with me. Don't need a book, don't need anything but the art of conversation and the lovely ( Read more... )

...but no one's ever there to take you home. So I don't know anymore. I don't know how to live without you, and that's the WORST thing in my life. I have always been self dependent, and then I met you and my world fell apart. You are the best and worst part of my day. Yet there are some days I long to be able to pick up and go. Like I used to. ( Read more... )

So here it is. Finally, the snuggles, cuddles, and kisses. He opens doors for me, when I drive, he even opens that one too. He pays for dinner, and calls me beautiful. I feel amazing inside and out. I've been waiting and now I have it, but now that I have it, I'm scared. I don't know why, but I am. I guess I've always been afraid of falling. But we ( Read more... )

"When two people love each other, totally, truthfully, all the way love each other, when do you get to that point where enough is enough?" NEVER. And everyone who knows what I'm talking about knows it's true. You go through hell forever cause that love is deep, is true, is everything. It's never enough and you know it, I know it. "If love is a ( Read more... )

One day, but for now, things just are, and I'm ok with that. Life is never perfect, I get that, and I'm making the most of it. I live in Addison now, and never going back to E.P. I miss gramma, a lot. I know she feels the same, but I've been doing so well with money cause of saving gas that it's incredible. All my cards will be annihilated by May, ( Read more... )

What happened to my happily ever after? I don't know either. My mood has been pretty good and although I'm not thrilled about the frigid cold, I'm glad it's the season for layers and jeans and awesome coats. I guess that's all. I'm not feeling to awesome body wise but I guess I'm slightly stressed, I'm pulling shit together to make ends meet. I'm ( Read more... )

Drove all the way to Champaign for a fall out boy show. The show was incredible, the best I've ever been to. Gym Class Heroes was so fucking amazing and FOB put on an extra long show for us because they won't be touring again for a few years. Needless to say though, the security at the venue was a let down, they kicked us all out at 12:15, and we ( Read more... )

Lately I've been in the shittiest mood. I woke up this morning, did what I usually do and then sat on my bed and cried for no reason. Last night I felt like the biggest loser and I feel the same way tonight. I have no friends, nothing to do and it's the weekend. I'm never invited to go out with people. It's like I don't exist. I try so fucking hard ( Read more... )