so i found out on friday that i got accepted to go on the service trip to El Salvador!! and i'm super excited!! we had our first meeting today and i got to meet my group. i know one girl really well, and i don't really know the other people. but that's what i wanted. i wanted to be able to meet new people. i really think it's gonna be a great trip ( Read more... )

so i met with anitra, the dean of students on tuesday, and we tried to explain the situation i was in with her. she wasn't too happy and i feel that we pretty much looked like assholes. she was just like why are you coming to me, this isn't my area. and i got a lecture about how i shouldn't try to beat the system and that the rules are in place for ( Read more... )

so you know when things just get so bad/stressful that you want so badly to just give up? but you know you can't because so many people are depending on you to come through. and you know that if you give up it won't ever work out, so you just keep going because you don't have any other choice ( Read more... )

so i had an awesome weekend. and i thought that for once things were turning around and maybe i would be happy for a change ( Read more... )

i'm an idiot

and ps: i must have seriously pissed someone off in some previous life or some other time, because karma is kicking my ass!

so i had an awesome weekend at sarah's!! it was a lot of fun and just really relaxing. just what i needed. or so i thought. but now i'm not so sure. because now it's back to the stressfulness of life. and it has nothing to do with school work. that's not the problem. it's this whole housing thing. i wish people would call me back when i need to ( Read more... )

so i'm feeling much better from last night. it was a mini breakdown. and i know i was overreacting. but if this situation was only affecting me, i wouldn't be feeling like this. but i just feel so bad that my parents have to be brought into this and they are affected by it. they shouldn't have to deal with this. i made this decision to help out my ( Read more... )

ok, so let me start this off by saying that i'm not writing this to make anyone feel sorry for me...i'm just doing it because i need to vent somewhere to someone...and right now i can't talk about this in person without crying..so that isn't an option ( Read more... )

so i went to this lecture tonight for theology class. and i wasn't looking forward to it, but i have to say it was amazing. the guy was a great speaker, but it was more than that. i started to reevaluate my life and my relationships. the lecture was about his book the seven levels of intimacy. and he started off by telling us that we should keep ( Read more... )

so does it ever bug you when someone says they want to do something or they don't want to do something, and then you ask why and they give the most ridiculous reason ever?? like a reason that really wouldn't affect their doing or not doing the thing? yeah well i just had one of those encounters, and it's just so frustrating, because the more i try ( Read more... )