I had a weird dream the other night. The whole family was going to this couples house, or more like a mansion. 3 stories and a rod iron fence. Anyways the lady of the wanted me to enjoy a drink with her in the library, I was hesitant but with much pressure from the others I felt it rude to decline. When I came back only Gabe was there with man ( Read more... )

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Well I been thinking about a lot lately, it's been about 18 months and there has been 1 occasion where I had two days off in a row.  At times I feel like I don't even know my own children,  and my wife seems to be dying of loneliness, and stressed over taking care of the house.  Soon it's going to be harder.  I love raising kids, but it's torture ( Read more... )

O.K. I know you've all thought about it so I wanna hear your opinion.  Why is it in America you are mature enough to decide to join the army and die for your country, leave your family and fight for a nation at the age of 18, but yet not mature enough to know when to drink untill 21.

Today I was late for work, as I was on my way to work I got sideswipped by a CRX, luckily they were only going about 15mph.  I honastly think it scared them more than me.  It is a blind spot for me, I can't see cars unless they actually stop at the stop sign, but as soon as I rode across I saw this CRX, front end rising, and the driver looking left ( Read more... )

I don't know why I can't be humble.  Even riding my bike in the rain to my dead end job, I just can't shed my arrogance, I feel like I'm stronger than everyone else.  I know if I can overcome this arrogance, I won't be such a perfectionist, then I could be happy for all my blessings.  That is my biggest goal in life right now, and it's to much for ( Read more... )

Today I feel tired, dunno why, slept in, watched a movie, ate food, didn't really do any work, just 1 load of laundry and maybe 1/3 load of dishes.  I think it's just depression, wish tophernol didn't give me siezures.  
I wanna make some cookies

O.K., Dara and mommy are at the hospital right now.  I feel so out of place, I'm here spending time with healthy, happy Zoe, reading, dancing, and gibbering, yet so many worries, and so much sypathy for Dara.  Today has been wierd, all day I've felt like I literally want to jump out of my skin.  Really I have to much to type, maybe tomarrow.

Our car is crap.  Our daughter needs to poo.  Work was work, had another person quit today, everyone seems to be finding better work.  I hope that tape loader job responds, if not I think Butler Ford might be good.
Zoe has said a few new words today and the dirty laundry is starting to dissapear, maybe tomarrow I can call about my lisence.

I feel a bit out of sorts lately.  My uncle died saturday in a home fire, but I really didn't know him.  The trick is my mom, who in the last 2 weeks has been extra nice to my family, was very close to him.  She wants me to go to the funneral tomarrow, but I have to work.  On the other hand my boss has worked very hard for the last week, we've lost ( Read more... )