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" Even though a relationship should be more of a wanting thing, than a needing thing, I still need you Matty. I want you more than anything, but I still need you ( Read more... ) -
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So I I am back to live journal...Matty is back in my life and I am happy...very very very happy....we are not letting eachother go again...this is for better for worse forever....I am nervous though..I know people don't like the idea...and when he gets ready to move up here in december I am terrified everyone is going to talk him out of it. We are ( Read more... ) -
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Yes Yes Yes Lesley has returned to livejournal...umm lets see I am alone again...but I am back with my friends...friends that I really didnt see much of untill about the end of november and I love that, I wouldnt have it any other way I was actually more alone when I was in my last relationship than I am now...Ive also aquirred some new friends... ( Read more... ) -
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Halloween started out shitty, got into a huge fight with Matt, and it was because he was drunk and being a jack ass, I ended up calling Matty crying hysterically all upset, but he helped me come to my senses again, then that night I drove matt around until we worked out our shit, we need to trust eachother..bottom line. Last night we went to a ( Read more... ) -
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I am trying really hard to get my school work done..but god damn its just not happening. I have to go to services tonight for Yom kippur...GRRR I hate going there. Its so fucking fake. But anyways, Tomorrow I get to get up and help clean the house before the family comes over for the breaking of the fast. Fun. Matt said he might join us but I ( Read more... ) -
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Last night was hell, but Im not going into all the details...I basically just woke up feeling like shit. I want to see Matt, but I highly dout I will tonight..after last night I just want to be with him not saying anything not talking not really going anywhere, I just want him to hold me. I just feel like I need to be with him after all that was ( Read more... ) -
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I am so fucking miserable right now...1 I am sick, two I find out last night that the weekend my parents are going to be out of town so is Matt, possibly. It fucking sucks, I told him about this way back in augast when I 1st found out about it. When your girlfriend says hey my parents are going to be out of town for a weekend that usually means ( Read more... ) -
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today fucking sucked...matt's not coming over and we are fighting anyway so that is probably a good thing ( Read more... ) -
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yesterday was blech...the only good thing was that I saw matt, then I went to work...then I went home...today I'm dancing from 1-2:30, I missed my 9:30-11:30 class because my dad let me sleep in and didnt wake me up. I sleep through every alarm. Anyway then I have work from 4-9, then Matts coming over here. I miss him right now...not really sure ( Read more... ) -
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FUCK SHIT FUCK MOTHERFUCKER!!
Last night was hell, I got mad at matt for a stupid reason, I spent all of last night hating myself for it and most of this morning. I've been catching alot of shit from my parents lately. Shit that is really getting to me, and getting inside my head. They tell me all the time that Im going to fuck up and screw up and ( Read more... )