I can't believe last night went the way it did. The true broken wing syndrome has come back and I realize that I want to take care of her just as much as I did before. I can relate to her pain and it makes it so difficult to just sit idley by and not do anything to help her feel better. I don't know what to do to remedy the situation. I love ( Read more... )

It never fails that no matter how much I try to convince myself that I don't have feelings for someone that they will date someone else and I will, inevitably, get hurt in the process. Put on a happy face, just for a different reason, and pretend that everything is honkey dorey. She really is a great friend but now she's a great friend with someone ( Read more... )

Losing two family members in a week is truly starting to take an effect on me. Even though I didn't know either of them all that well, it's hard to know that my mom and rest of my family back home is suffering as much as they are. I feel bad that theres not a damn thing that I can do to ease any of their pain from halfway across the country. It ( Read more... )

There are so many things in my life that I wish I would've been able to do. To travel more, to make more friends, to really experience my life as opposed to having it simply effect me. In hindsight, all of these things are marvelous and yet completely irrelevant in my life at the moment. Who gives a shit what I wanted in the past--it's not going to ( Read more... )

These last few days have lead to heart and mind opening conversations about what it means to be depressed, to be a college student, to be gay, to be in love, to be a good friend. None of it makes sense even after long nonsensical hours of talking about these various subjects. I am no closer to understanding, to becoming these seemingly unattainable ( Read more... )

I don't know what I should have expected. Coming home from a place I wish I'd never left could only result in emotional trauma but I never would've imagined it skyrocketing to heights such as this. My mind has gone haywire, completely lost in what I can never imagine to be something resembling normal. Medication would help, yes, however it's not ( Read more... )