she can wake up each morning-barely and sleep each night restlessly. she can curl her lips to respond to smiles and laugh to stimulate jokes. shes flying through this life yeah shes completely coastal. coasting through the time...

because...

the second shes alone

she can kneel down behind close doors and curse you and she can drive to the outdoors to ( Read more... )

This is the hardest week since last year, there are just to many amazing memories crammed into the next few days, even the morning of. I find myself getting upset and hating you.Sometimes i feel as though i wasnt even dating a real person but rather a girl controlled by the fear of her parents, the fear of never being something, of growing up to be ( Read more... )

today i put on one of ur hoodies and a long perfect strand of ur hair was tucked in the sleeve and tickling my arm. havent been this crushed in about two weeks and i just crashed....theres remains of u everywhere, it doesnt fade and im glad it doesnt just i need a fucking break from being so hrut, it never stops ( Read more... )

she will never love me so she cant leave me.

cheers to having a lover i dont have to love.

::raisesglass::

i just stood out in the snow. it felt like a snow glabe just the way i love. but i felt alone. i tasted ur tears on every snow flake that touched my tongue as my own streamed my face.....

fuck u for all of this.

days arent getting easier and nights are getting shorter. every hour that passes is slower than the last. ive been drowning myself in bottles and bottomless glasses of alcohol just to feel a smile on my face. these ciggarettes are numbing out my veins ( Read more... )

i dreamt of a fever,
one that would cure me of this cold, winter set heart.
with heat to melt these frozen tears
burned with reasons as to carry on.
into these twisted months i plunge without a light to follow
but i swear that i would follow anything
just get me out of here.
and you get six months to adapt
then you get two more to leave town.
and ( Read more... )

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i have been watching these videos of lauren on my phone for like the past 5 hours non stop since i found them....

unreal.

i just dont fucking understand, and idk how im supposed to get through this.

life doesnt stand still, doesnt pause or give u a moment to breathe. every breath i take is followed by being swept away into the next task at hand, into the next event to come. im not sure how i wake up each morning, mostly im not even aware im really here until i feel the painful tears streaming down my face. not a day has passed without them. ( Read more... )