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[envyurdemise]

life doesnt stand still, doesnt pause or give u a moment to breathe. every breath i take is followed by being swept away into the next task at hand, into the next event to come. im not sure how i wake up each morning, mostly im not even aware im really here until i feel the painful tears streaming down my face. not a day has passed without them. not a second goes by where ur not the thought in my mind. every word or sentence said from someones mouth i can somehow easily relate back to a memory with you. every sight i see even when my eyes are closed are consumed by some thought of u. i called u beautiful almost everyday because that is what u were. that is what u are. u had this speacial way with every person u ever came in contact with. u left a mark on everyone even it was just a spoken hello....

yeah...cant do this yet...