my life has been a complete mess recently. the death of my grandpa was a complete shock and disoriented me for almost a week. ive been constantly thinking about my future and what i should do with my life and i feel like im going nowhere. i once again am jobless and i feel like im gonna run out of money and have problems with that. i am ( Read more... )

welcome week was very interesting and i definitly had fun but it set the scene for me and dans relationship to completely fall apart. he hates me right now and i dont blame him. he also did things that pissed me off but i clearly was much worse. maybe im just not the right kind of person to be in a relationship but then i think about how much i ( Read more... )

i need a job up at schooool. and i dunno if ill be able to get one. uggg. ill probly end up working at another subway. that would suck. my last day of work is sunday. yay. there were some cool people that worked there tho and i will miss them. i really feel like i went back in time to 2 years ago cuz i am seeing so many people lately that i ( Read more... )

i guess lifes been semi ok lately. dan won free tickets to this comedy show in royal oak and we went and it was quite amazing. i dont think ive realized how cool stand up comedy really is. then the last couple days have been filled with random people i dont really know and some people i havent seen in forever and peter. i find it really funny ( Read more... )

hmmm alot of things on my mind. i dunno what to do or how to be anymore.

my mood has improved dramatically. i realise that altho they may be few, there are people that care about me. i need to be happy with that. i need to be happy. that is my goal. my birthday weekend was fun. party at msu on friday...got a $40 parking ticket, saw alot of people i havent seen in forever, got wasted, realized i miss msu alot more ( Read more... )

california was sweet. thats all im gonna say cuz some things cant be said and the rest i really dont feel like typing out. i will say that everyone should go to mexico and drink their brains out. i will also say that miles' dad is incredibly generous. ive been feeling quite down lately and im so sick of it i seriously need to work on that. i ( Read more... )

right now could be the first time in awhile that i have felt liek i NEED to drink. so many things are wrong, everything seems messed up. i would settle for a cigarette right now but i cant think of an excuse to leave my house.

less than a week til california ( Read more... )

virginia with my family was not the best time of my life but it was a good break from the norm i suppose ( Read more... )