my life seems so pointless
im so sick of everything
i need to do something stimulating
im trying really hard to be positive and happy but i cant help but be sad about how much i hate myself

i need a fucking life. or a hobby. and some self esteem. especially when it comes to my appearance. i constantly feel like im just waiting for time to pass. but when im in a moment that im truly enjoying, time goes by way too fast. my last couple summers were amazingly fun, this one not so much. is it sad that i want to go back to school ( Read more... )

soo i came to this crazy realization that i really want to be a writer or like a journalist. id love to write for a newspaper or a magazine. i just want to write about life and other such things, or review movies or music or somehting. i dont think im talented or that this is something thats even mildly realistic, but i think that truly might be ( Read more... )

i feel like a fool for being so easy in the past, for never truly attempting to form a solid bond, for playing with emotions, for cheating without a second thought, for doing things for alternative reasons that seem so stupid now. that kind of lifestyle can never bring you the feeling you get when youre in the arms of someone you truly care about ( Read more... )

im having trouble sleeping
i toss and i turn
my dreams are cut off because i wake up at random times throughout the nite
i feel like i havent gotten a good nites sleep in a while
this sucks

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i want to escape the reality that is seeping into my brain.

ive learned enuf by now to know that if im unhappy with something in my life then i should work on changing it ( Read more... )

im too happy
this probly means that some aspect of my life is gonna turn real shitty real soon

because of my laziness i fear that i will be unemployed over the summer. i need to fix that.

recently ive become much more comfortable with myself and my life
im content and hopefully soon ill be able to say that im happy
i feel like things are becoming better
when i look at the emotional patterns in my life i sometimes think i have seasonal affect disorder

( you say you want a revolution )