my heart. your skin. this love. im in.
my life has been a complete mess recently. the death of my grandpa was a complete shock and disoriented me for almost a week. ive been constantly thinking about my future and what i should do with my life and i feel like im going nowhere. i once again am jobless and i feel like im gonna run out of money and have problems with that. i am completely destroying my body, i smoke way too many cigarettes, binge drink, eat unhealthy, dont work out, and im starting to feel the effects of all this. i cant get to sleep at nite unless im drunk or really high, i think i need to get sleeping pills. all this stuff is just really bothering me and i feel like i need a break from my life.