every day i see a rich man in a poor man's disguise
he's counting on the future while the past plays on his mind
once when he's had diamonds replaced in his eyes
he couldn't see so well, but ooh how they shined
'cause when they pull the shutters down and throw up in the dark
they'll find that all the dogs outside bite much worse than they bark

here we ( Read more... )

I’m sitting around with a needle in my arm - well, not a needle, a tube - and thinking there’s something I should be doing.  Not in general.  Not with my life.  Something I should be doing right now.  Some errand I could be running, some important decision I could be making.  I’m already doing homework while being checked in to medical daycare for ( Read more... )

I lost my love down by the water where you carried me that night I lay awake, afloat in my dreaming, in your singsong singalong snoring.  I could never look at you like that, so powerless, so lifelike as if to say you were.  You know.  But we both knew you weren’t, and your eyes were dark when open but asleep you were so white, almost sickly.  I ( Read more... )

He enters the café all alight with something too bright to keep your eyes on and scours the room for something unknown, some great mystery we never knew was there.  The stench of him overwhelmed the smells of freshly-brewed coffee and sugary pastries.  He entered your nose in a way that felt dirty, like his existence were there to violate you.  ( Read more... )

your plague echoes ( Read more... )

keep it together keep it together keep it together ( Read more... )

i walked down to the water. i don't know why. it carried me there, the slow breeze in the sky, the pounding in my throat. i couldn't keep count of the beats but i knew there were too many. the water was still, almost too still. time was moving, everywhere people were moving, but i had stopped. it was on my honor. time hadn't stopped. a restlessness ( Read more... )

i don't even know how to update anymore. i am a terrible livejournalist. it's true. i never thought this would happen, but it officially has. here are some things, again, in list form:

x. tomorrow is my twenty-fourth birthday. coincidentally, it is also my first day of classes at mount holyoke. as mount holyoke has decided to designate tomorrow as a ( Read more... )

my grandma's in the hospital again. this time, it was a severe shortage of blood. the doctors haven't figured out why yet, but the important thing is that she's currently getting a transfusion, and they will do all sorts of tests until they figure out why her body isn't producing enough red blood cells. it's so scary now. it used to be that, if she ( Read more... )

because i don't feel like organizing my thoughts ( Read more... )