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[eleanorruby]

keep it together keep it together keep it together

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[a_proclivity]

Oh babe. If you need anything, even if it's just a pep talk, call me.

[eleanorruby]

thanks, kim. i miss you! i've been extremely antisocial lately, as i'm sure you can tell. i know you haven't been feeling up to shit lately either, but man. sometime soon. we will at least drink tea and complain for a few.

[here_in_spain]

You've gotten through it once, you can definitely do it again! It's great that you can do outpatient treatments, seriously.

[eleanorruby]

i know. god, i was so scared when i thought i'd have to be admitted to the hospital again. it was going to be for, like, an undetermined amount of time, which is just terrifying to me. at least this way, they can do what they need to do, and i can continue living my life.

[fallen_fizzgig]

=( that really stinks. this has really been a bad week for the body it seems. I hope that you can get yourself a little more stabilized again, I know how hard it is to deal with something chronic like that.

[eleanorruby]

thanks, samm. yeah, it's awful knowing that it can and will just come back like this, but i guess at least i'm more prepared this time. i'm fighting. i guess that's something.

[fallen_fizzgig]

it is TOTALLY something, and it makes me so happy to read that you're fighting this. fighting takes so much more courage than simply sitting back and letting it control you. you aren't that type of person so I couldn't see you just suddenly becoming like that.

each time you'll learn some new way to deal with it. it'll probably never be 100% controllable because that's just how it is with conditions like that but you'll always learn something that can help you make the flare-ups bearable or even shorten the amount of time you spend feeling crappy.

[eleanorruby]

this is very true, and your optimism is extremely appreciated right now. very few people are optimistic about this, and i actually tend to be more optimistic than most, even when my body's failing me, so yeah -- it's very true, i sought relief more quickly and efficiently this time, i already knew which things to definitely avoid, i stopped working immediately (temporarily), and i've been laying low and not exerting myself, just getting my work done. so far, things have seemed a bit more manageable.

[cora_the_rose]

I love you.

[eleanorruby]

i love you, too... why do we never see each other? it's silly. we should smacked upside the head (<-- our collective head).

oh darling.

[enoladismay]

i am so sorry. just think of this particular feeling as temporary, maybe. that's the only thing i can think of..

Re: oh darling.

[eleanorruby]

it's the only thing i can think of, too... i mean, even if it is a chronic illness, it's sometimes in remission, so i have to think of each flare-up as just another thing to get through to be healthy again. better than resigning myself to the life of a "sick person", i suppose.