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my grandma's in the hospital again. this time, it was a severe shortage of blood. the doctors haven't figured out why yet, but the important thing is that she's currently getting a transfusion, and they will do all sorts of tests until they figure out why her body isn't producing enough red blood cells. it's so scary now. it used to be that, if she were sick, she was just sick. but now, i don't know. she's eighty-two years old; she has worsening respiratory problems; she doesn't get around as well as she used to. it's starting to feel, for the first time since she was a heavy drinker, like i'm really going to lose her. and i'm not ready to lose the woman who raised me.