it began five years ago ( Read more... )

been thinking a lot lately about what shape i'd like my first permanent artistic scar to be of. maybe that scorpion i've always wanted, with the curled tail so it looks like a "J." or maybe the sword/pen cross, or maybe the smokey angel in grey. or, possibly, the huge ship at sea in stormy waters, which could incorporate every tattoo theme i've ( Read more... )

things have changed in interesting ways in the past couple of years of my life. the past is closer, yet further, the future no longer a dream of dreams. i have responsibilities i never dreamed of wanting but still live with an edge of terror slicing the possible monotony with its sharp glances. speed is hesitant only in the face of rising gas ( Read more... )

I'm told by a friend that in some survey of the new year you decided you were disappointed most in me. It's posted on some livejournal page that I don't know about. I remember once you were simpler ( Read more... )

I might be poor. But that is neither here nor there, nor should it be a topic of main conversation. I'm living a life I'd prefer to live over a life of constant paychecks coming from a source I don't approve ( Read more... )

thanks ice, now i don't own a car anymore. thanks luck, now neither does my friend. thanks depreciation, now what was two years ago a $27k car is only worth $17k. and last but not least, thanks attic, without you i wouldn't have hundreds of tiny splinters in my hands ( Read more... )

the three year anniversary of my last intestinal infection that landed me in the hospital for the second time brought an exceptional present just for me this year, another hospital stay. same problem, and again i'm way too young to be having these problems. talk about removing part of my intestines surgically. can't help but think about how ( Read more... )

once upon a time i was overwhelmed. senior year of high school, public speaking class. i froze up, fell to the floor with an ashamed and tear stained face. i dealt with it by not going back for the rest of the semester, unable to face any of them. and they let me get away with it. i've been overwhelmed a lot since then. not getting into unh, ( Read more... )

i still can't believe how happy i am with this even though i wrote it two years ago, i just generally can't successfully convey actual hatred ( Read more... )

a couple of weeks ago i got drunk and thought i was jack bauer. only thing weirder is it's the second time that's happened. i've been missing lizzie a lot lately, realized i don't even know what she looks like right now. kevin stuff has been really getting me down lately, apparently it's time for phase seventeen of infinity with that whole thing ( Read more... )