I feel like shit inside. The Deftones did a great cover of this Depeche Mode song.

I need to be cleansed
It's time to make amends
For all of the fun
The damage is done
And I feel diseased
I'm down on my knees
And I need forgiveness
Someone to bear witness
To the goodness within
Beneath the sin
Although I may flirt
With all kinds of dirt
To the point of disease
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It guess it couldn't matter less because it just shouldn't at all, but I've got this urge stemmed from the habit of answering when you knock. I don't feel like the habit but the habit is like me, we both sit stewing waiting for the answering.... And the machine goes off like the calling of the new..day. We crack the dawn and sputter out. It's hard ( Read more... )

This thing is taking over my mind lately and I can't try hard enough it seems, what the fuck is a finish line

The dream is over, fucking tonight, tonight, tonight, tonight.

I've never had a feeling I didn't know what it was, like not good not bad not content not discontent not depressed not glad, but it's there and it hasn't a home.

I'm in the hospital until 3 with Christopher, I try talking to him like old times but he just stares through me and closes his eyes, nothing like old times. I have decaf green tea with me and I ate an everything bagel. His catheter bag was staring at me the entire time I was eating. I woke up today feeling a bit better, not as frustrated, not ( Read more... )

It's taken me a long time to come around, sometimes I try to measure how far around it was. I know around here it never really ends, and I don't know how to fall asleep with out your voice, it's the only thing I can seem to get to calm my mind. I don't know how I'm going to let go of your hand at the airport, I don't want to know the feeling. We ( Read more... )

I'm craving you so bad right now it's like I'm addicted, fidgeting and anxious for you. Feeling really empty without you. I can't satiate my appetite for you. You, you, you. I love you, I fill my lungs with you, mind, heart, and soul with you. How can this be real after I open my eyes?

I still find myself getting strange anxieties that I used to get when I was with jakee. I was walking through the hall at work last night around 10:30pm and you texted me and I got really bummed that I would not be able to talk to you when I got home... Then I realized my currently reality again. My email will go off and it gives me anxiety because ( Read more... )

People know the just of your life sometimes, and they just think they know it all. They have no idea all the shit ass details when your looking run down as fuck. I can't even believe I've done what I've done. I woke up this morning being kind of amazed with myself, and how I've gone above and beyond what I thought my capabilities where, or my ( Read more... )