I just moved to a new place in panhandle. its a really lively yet mellow area in the heart of san francisco. It was awkard to say bye to girls, we have not really talked in the last few days, just awkward interactions. I was not sure if i was acting weird or it was them. i feel so uncomfortable with people lately. I can't look people in the eye ( Read more... )

moving in a few days. thank god. tired of this place.

if i keep things simple, even my dreams, i will be okay. the more desires i have, the more i want to move to other country, state, province, the more suffering i experience bc it just seems like it never comes or it comes in a dissapointing package, maybe nothing is perfect unless one is okay with what they have and who they are. easy concept, ( Read more... )

feel claustraphobic. Jason insists on coming here the same weekend that Josh is here. I told him it will make me uncomfortable to have both of them there. But he just doesn't want to step back. Josh is awkward and we still have a interesting dynamic.
Alright. have to go

maybe i should write and keep connected as much as i can ( Read more... )

i need an outlet for the next few weeks to keep me sane. then a change of routine, start meditating, doing yoga, surfing, etc. My stomach does not hurt as much today as it it the last few days. I felt like there was some hard ball forming and i wanted to hit it to dilute it from forming. Crying on the bus while going to the museum. I wasn't sure ( Read more... )

I don't know what is going on with me this week, this year, this life. Lets start with today. How could i confuse a test? I went into the classrom to get ready for a test with a scantron. I panicked bc i didn't have a pencil and had to borrow it from a lady next to me. she asked if i wanted a pen instead, I pointed to a scantron.. I mean.. why ( Read more... )

I feel at peace with everything. i just want to eat more vegetables and have more energy. thats all.

got a job as a swim instructor yesterday. is it better than a camp instructor? might be kind of hectic. i shold register for a CPR course.

don't want to write more.

Its late. Another Sunday night wasted in the house in front of the computer. Why don't i ever take a monday off from school? My whole week and life would have so much more quality. I can enjoy it and then do homework on Monday when everyone is doing something else. I went to the brazialian class this morning. Its called Spirit and healing. I used ( Read more... )

oh my god. living in this country is making me ill. There is a talk about Democrats that are being recruited who are pro-life. THere is so much talk about pro-life even in California. The democrats say its better to have strong democrats who are pro-life than have less democrats in the senate. its sooo sick. This woman is debating with them (on ( Read more... )