I stumbled upon this journal again accidentally tonight. Life is going by so fast, i just wish i could stop it for a little while so i could fully enjoy my last few weeks here in the only real home I've had over the past four years. The world outside our bubble here scares me...I'm so different that I used to be. I don't even know who the scared, ( Read more... )

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At some point last night, a little bit after 1am, I realized that moments like last night are taken for granted so often. Four friends, sitting on the floor, eating cookie birthday cake, laughing like tipsy fools at the most ridiculous things. Everything about last night made me realize that I take so much for granted. I never just simple stop, and ( Read more... )

A constant theme and constant question in my life right now is about people and change. Can people really change, or are they perpetually stuck being the same person they always have been, despite their best efforts? I look through the facebook profiles and pictures of people I encountered throughout high school, and I wonder this about them. Are ( Read more... )

I have a long list of things that are wrong right now. A long list of things and feelings that are keeping me down. And instead of talking to everyone like i did in high school, im trying a new way to deal: dealing on my own. I'm frusterated and dissapointed in myself on so many levels its really sick and i have no one to blame except myself. I ( Read more... )

Tomorrow i go back to MD, and tuesday morning i move in for my junior year of college. can you believe it? my third year of college already. seems like it was just yesterday i moved in for the first time. its funny, im having the same kind of upsetting feelings about leaving this time that i did the first time. im really sad and almost don't want ( Read more... )

Apparently, I really AM doing something wrong. Especially if SHE is no longer alone, yet I still am. And I'm tired of putting on the happy face. And I'm tired of feeling as though I have no where to turn to, even though i know that i do. I hate that write this here, and never have any happy news to post. I hate that i miss YOU even though there is ( Read more... )

So yes, I said I was departing from LJ using, only leaving comments on friends occasionally and such…but I think that having a journal is in a way my therapy. Some people medicate, some drink, some get high, some pay a shrink thousands of dollars and I, well I write. It’s the least evasive and the lease detrimental to my personal wellbeing. So I’ve ( Read more... )

Something someone told me tonight made me think a alot, made me realize a lot. And it makes me realize just how far I've come in the past year. I'm so much stronger, I'm so much wiser. All in all, I think I'm a better person since last year. Funny how it all came about tonight..but I don't know. I just suddenly realized it. Odd how one thing ( Read more... )

LEADER OF THE PACK opens tonight!!!!! I'm excited yet nervous all at the same time. I pray it goes well. We shall see. *crosses fingers* My grandfather is doing better....Thank God. He has a long way to go, but for now he is out of trouble. Thanks to my friends and Mount community for their love and support the past few days...it means the world to ( Read more... )