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abusive relationships
i realized yesterday that i am in an abusive relationship for the second time in my life that doesn't have to do with me abusing myself. I don't think it's me anyway...I was in the bathroom at the doctors office and this list was posted on the wall.
Do you:
feel afraid of your partner much of the time?
Does your partner:
humiliate or yell at you?
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so, i am doing better. ive been having these mixed episodes that wreck havoc on my system. and its like a blink of an eye, it happens then its gone. ive gone back to work, and today my boss called me into his office for a 1:1 meeting like we have every month. just a status update kind of thing, he does it with everyone. today he told me that people ( Read more... ) -
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i hate everyone. the crisis line never calls back. im a huge burden. ive been out of work for 3 weeks, one of which i was hospitalized. im supposed to be better now instead im throwing burnt cookies, throwing hissy fits and mixing my lorazepam with wine.
i just dont care right now.
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it seems they always go together for some reason. though ive had my share of bad lately. anyways, ill get to the point ( Read more... ) -
the glad game
i love pollyanna. its one of my all time favorite movies. actually its probably right behind the wizard of oz. i try really hard to play the glad game whenever im having trouble. it doesnt always work but it keeps me from being upset more often than not. actually the glad game may be what caused the strength ryan sees in me. it may even be what ( Read more... ) -
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i havent updated in a while so i thought id give you guys a rundown of whats been going on with me. ive been SUPER busy. like, super busy to the point where i can hardly sleep. my goddamn apartment complex gave me and jace each 260$ in rent credits. and they talked to the neighbors who seem to be quieter, at least at 1am when i get home from work. ( Read more... ) -
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anyone feel the need for an update? well i feel the need to write one so you get one anyways. i dont really remember exactly what was going on with me the last time i wrote an entry. ill start with the last few weeks and probably wander off from there ( Read more... ) -
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sometimes it baffles the hell out of me that people actually want to remember what i say. you know, honestly im not all that funny. its kind of wierd that people laugh when i talk and some people just hang on my every story, even if theyve heard it 10 times. its actually really strange to me. ive always wanted to be an entertainer. a singer, a ( Read more... ) -
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nick: between the snow were going to get tonight & the fact that we [chel & nick] both work valentines day at kohls im canceling wrestling tonight.
me: yeah, i wasnt planning on making the trek through the blizzard
nick: smart & beautiful. no wonder terry loves you.
me: lol. you flatter me sir
nick: better than flaying you.
me: true. i much ( Read more... )