I've seen a few people do this, and I thought it was really cool, so I'm going to do it as well ( Read more... )

I tend to blog more on my tumblr than on here.
http://nathalie-forever-ago.tumblr.com/

I need someone, anyone to read this, just so I can feel less fucking alone ( Read more... )

So there's this boy that I work with...and I've liked him for a while now, but damn, I am falling hard for him. From the first time we even talked I felt so incredibly drawn to him, in a way that I never was with Justin, and haven't really felt with anyone. I don't even know him super well yet, I just feel so drawn to him. I can't explain it. He's ( Read more... )

I feel like a stupid teenage girl because I post too much relationship stuff on my LJ, but I literally have nowhere else to get this out. I'm supposed to be in a relationship with someone everyone thinks I'm going to marry, and on the outside, everyone says we're the perfect couple, and so cute, but I just do not love him anymore. And for the first ( Read more... )

Of everything that was upsetting about today, of all the painful memories, of all the anger and sorrow that surfaced, I think, strangely, the worst was seeing him. The only person I have ever been completely and wholly in love with. The person that I will always feel I gave up to be with Justin. I don't think I will ever love someone like him again ( Read more... )

I've been back home since Sunday night and have done nothing but binge, purge and sleep. My insurance won't cover my Seroquel anymore even after my doctor said I needed it, and I absolutely cannot function without any medication. I hate the fact that I need something to perform like a proper human being, but I do. I am lying in bed shaking like ( Read more... )

Posted this on my tumblr, but things I want to save get archived on my lj too, so...that was for any one who actually reads both ( Read more... )

I got arrested for shoplifting tonight. I feel numb. I knew it was going to happen the entire time too because I saw someone saw me put something in my bag. But I kept telling myself I was being paranoid that all of a sudden every employee seemed to be passing by me. I feel like a monster, but not because I did something wrong, but because even ( Read more... )

I didn't binge and purge today. This is the first time since December 16th and before that was when I was in the psych ward. It was a weird feeling coming home from work tonight and just calmly walking into my room and changing into my pajamas. I'm finding that I don't know what to do with myself. I spend so many hours a day binging and purging, I ( Read more... )