it's funny how ppl seem to think one needs to divide these two. i love nik, we have sex. it's not necessarily mutually exclusive, but sex does happen because of the love we feel. however it must be noted that sex did not occur before the love did. our love came all outta the blue. then we actually talked and agreed to include sex in our ( Read more... )

hmm...how do i feel today? hmm...
last night was the first time in a really long time that i've treated a guy to something really special. that i let him see how much i really care about him. i'm always nervous about grand gestures. u never know when ppl will make u regret them. and i've done soo many stupid things in the past for guys. but i'm ( Read more... )

so i'm finally doing it. i'm getting it off my chest n putting it out there for the whole world to know. coz i know everyone who matters knows i'm fucked up but i'm sure they dont know why. i'm gonna answer that one once and for all ( Read more... )

Considering that i haven't blogged in ages, this will prolly be a longer update than expected.

xmas and the new year went well enuff. i was with nik, enuff said. i'm still with nik, even more enuff said. my job sux alot. nik helps me to stay as sane as is possible. monday we're gonna have a meeting at work because i swear the bitches there just ( Read more... )

"We've got time", he says ( Read more... )

ackkk the end of the bloody month and not one post....save this one!! :S ( Read more... )

a yr ago on this date, i walked into extreme and met nik. with his large eyes and crazy head of hair, i didnt give him a second moment's thought. then in his husky voice he asked if i wanted something to drink and disappeared. after what i felt was enuff time to get me my drink and he didnt return, i forgot about him and concentrated on the fete. ( Read more... )

so my baby was worried he'd ruin my day. i'm sorry if i at all contributed to ur inability to sleep and the presence of such thoughts. i'm one of those ppl who needs to take the pulse of the relationship sometimes to make sure it's still breathing. so i offloaded my stresses prolly at the wrong moment. it's like when u press ur hand to ur heart and ( Read more... )

just feeling blah today. nothing going on, i dont wanna do anything or see anyone, just wanna be useless and be told i'm useless and slit my wrists or sain. sigh ( Read more... )

    She walked into the compound not sure why she was there. He was ahead of her, playing with the little children, no doubt his while his wives spent the time in their huts cooking or cleaning. She stopped by the fence to watch the scene trying to understand their life, how they live. She could feel eyes on her but everyone seemed preoccupied. Was ( Read more... )