Love and sex
it's funny how ppl seem to think one needs to divide these two. i love nik, we have sex. it's not necessarily mutually exclusive, but sex does happen because of the love we feel. however it must be noted that sex did not occur before the love did. our love came all outta the blue. then we actually talked and agreed to include sex in our relationship.
recently been a bit sidetracked, hating to feel the touch of him, not understanding it and hating myself for it. it was kinda comfortable because i am used to having issues in relationships. but in this one, apart from some really silly flare ups, this guy does nothing but make me happy. which is prolly why i usually over react to the lil things, but that's another story. with nik, sex is our healing factor. i can connect with him in a way i never did with any other guy. i feel comforted, safe, happy, satiated, giddy, and most of all, relaxed. and this is not even after sex, this is just a regular day i'm taking about. i wish sometimes he'd just be a bit more spontaneous and spoil me some like i spoil him, but i guess that's pushing it. right now i'm just glad to be happy. it's in my nature to doubt things, but it's to make sure i'm sure about what i want. considering we've been together a year now, i think it's pretty obvious that i'm sure he's what i want.
now to go celebrate this milestone with a wk of whomping.
/me slips into nothing
recently been a bit sidetracked, hating to feel the touch of him, not understanding it and hating myself for it. it was kinda comfortable because i am used to having issues in relationships. but in this one, apart from some really silly flare ups, this guy does nothing but make me happy. which is prolly why i usually over react to the lil things, but that's another story. with nik, sex is our healing factor. i can connect with him in a way i never did with any other guy. i feel comforted, safe, happy, satiated, giddy, and most of all, relaxed. and this is not even after sex, this is just a regular day i'm taking about. i wish sometimes he'd just be a bit more spontaneous and spoil me some like i spoil him, but i guess that's pushing it. right now i'm just glad to be happy. it's in my nature to doubt things, but it's to make sure i'm sure about what i want. considering we've been together a year now, i think it's pretty obvious that i'm sure he's what i want.
now to go celebrate this milestone with a wk of whomping.
/me slips into nothing