i shouldn't let little fights and comments get to my heart. i know i make them, i know he makes them, and sometimes we're really just going to have to agree to disagree. that's the only exit out of this roundabout ( Read more... )

 if this is the outcome i was expecting, why am i do dissapointed about it? why am i shocked and embarassed and feel so out of touch? it's the long run thing that kills me. we had our lives planned together. we had our future set out in front of us. i pictured myself growing old with this man, exchanging vows, doing the whole thing with him. that's ( Read more... )

 ive dug myself in so deep that even if i tried i wouldn't know where to begin ( Read more... )

it's one of those situations where you know the exact outcome, but you refuse to believe it and hope for the better. i know whats to come, i know how my body will handle, so why and go with it?
i'm beating myself up over this and endlessly fighting about it
nothing feels too right anymore
the whole "absence makes the heart grow fonder" is proving ( Read more... )

After this time passes our foundation will be stronger than ever. It's getting a little easier, and I'm almost glad he's not reachable because then I'd be stressing about ways to visit him. Every second is worth it & I'm pretty sure I'll follow him whereever he goes ( Read more... )

I don't even know where to start ( Read more... )

The depth of my understanding is completely unbelieveable, mind-blowing, and I'm lucky for it. Because of that, I should be using it as a shield or create an even stronger foundation. I'm not doing either one of the two, and it's because I let ignorance get the best of me ( Read more... )

He is working for me in ways I will never understand.

What scares me the most is He is so true, and I continue to live almost guiltfree.

Guidance...patience.
I lack more than I thought.

It was so easy to predict the next move. Not keeping your word is becoming more and more of a trend. I'm glad I prepared myself for it because Lord knows, I could very well be suckered in ( Read more... )

Days are going by faster, and with this, I'm finding myself doing things I enjoy. Not what other people enjoy, but strictly what I enjoy. Whether or not it's selfish, I'm beginning to find a lot of peace in myself. There isn't any tension; these situations are my reality. I know entries seem to be all about me, but in times like these, I think this ( Read more... )