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The depth of my understanding is completely unbelieveable, mind-blowing, and I'm lucky for it. Because of that, I should be using it as a shield or create an even stronger foundation. I'm not doing either one of the two, and it's because I let ignorance get the best of me.
Why exactly am I doing this? What point am I trying to prove? That my Faith is there, but because of it, I'm free & forgiven?
Freedom is a gift, and I did grasp the reality of it until not too long ago. I AM SETTING MYSELF UP FOR FAILURE.
I don't want to be held back by the stupid things I used to do. I don't want to be apart of it anymore. The mercy He has on us often blows me away; why me, why us? Why, why, why? My vision is clear; however, where's my FULL committment? He doesn't want half of me, he wants me WHOLE. And I don't want to be a crappy offering. If I continue to walk in the steps I'm leading, that's all I'll ever be. I'm better than this.
Jesus is sooooo in love with me, and I should be head over heels in love with him, too. I know it's typical for me to lose interest, but this is an eternal love/friendship. I'm done with being niave. I'm done, i'm done, I AM DONE.
My life is for God.
He is the ONLY person I am out to impress. And because of Him, I am free from all of this. Freedom.
Just saying it gives me chills.
Why exactly am I doing this? What point am I trying to prove? That my Faith is there, but because of it, I'm free & forgiven?
Freedom is a gift, and I did grasp the reality of it until not too long ago. I AM SETTING MYSELF UP FOR FAILURE.
I don't want to be held back by the stupid things I used to do. I don't want to be apart of it anymore. The mercy He has on us often blows me away; why me, why us? Why, why, why? My vision is clear; however, where's my FULL committment? He doesn't want half of me, he wants me WHOLE. And I don't want to be a crappy offering. If I continue to walk in the steps I'm leading, that's all I'll ever be. I'm better than this.
Jesus is sooooo in love with me, and I should be head over heels in love with him, too. I know it's typical for me to lose interest, but this is an eternal love/friendship. I'm done with being niave. I'm done, i'm done, I AM DONE.
My life is for God.
He is the ONLY person I am out to impress. And because of Him, I am free from all of this. Freedom.
Just saying it gives me chills.