With a discriminating anamnesis, I've put pain and trust together, love and jealousy jointly... It's awe-inspiring how so much growth and acquisition of love and trust, hand in hand has somehow managed to make pain frightening yet fulfilling; It's astonishing how it's made jealousy my sustenance of progression, yet my fear of commitment. I've ( Read more... )

Life is perplexing. Unsettled with a plethora of both stress and series of trivial burdens. I'm oppressed with many complexities, and it seems that maybe, there is a reason I have to struggle for anything I want. I went to Fairfax this past weekend, to spend time with Josh. Whom I love more than only these words explain. Honestly, I cannot say what ( Read more... )

It's amazing - my life. How one day I am so enraged and infuriated and on the edge of tempetuous, for two days. Never getting respect or a thanks at work when I deserve it, not when I FEEL like I do, but when I actually do deserve a thanks. I almost walked out of work and quit, that's how ridiculous it is at work. I being only 20, and cooking for 4 ( Read more... )

Just when I am sure things could work out for me, I'm thrown a curveball. I hate how money ruins so many things. Perhaps it won't, but it worries me. All I want to do is be happy. Maybe I'll just have to suffer a bit to get what I want. Maybe this is my ambition... I won't give up. Don't let me give up. I can do this. Maybe this will only be a ( Read more... )

For some reason I felt like saying these ( Read more... )

What I hate about Valentine's day is that people show love on this day when they should every day. If I had a boyfriend, I'd spoil him and show him I love him, EVERYDAY. The other thing is, it sucks simply cause I get no love... At work, every employee was assigned a secret valentine... Everyone got something... Except me... See, I couldn't get any ( Read more... )

So, I'm making big bucks nowdays. Rock hard abs, a puppy I've ALWAYS wanted... Got my cloves again. Hanging out with friends again, finally. But, I still feel incomplete. Kinda lonely. I dont really feel lonely that much. I want someone I can spoil, and share my love with.

HEY!!! I got the job promotion. I rock... Celebrate? Why, Yeessss... ;)

After a long time of thinking. I have discovered that cloves taste better, and yeah, I'm throwing days of my life away... Both from smoking, and my seclusion. I need to go have fun... For me, accomplishment in work feels like fun, I enjoy it. I love to work. BUT, I'm not getting the happiness I need. Perhaps I need to start "LIVING" again ( Read more... )