It’s an existence defined only by one’s self. Figuring it out has been trying but to trust in the sovereignty of my predestined life is all I can truly hold on to. Why does it hurt when you feel you know so much? Truly envious of those who are ignorant and blind with their heart and mind. To live in such bliss has not been my fate. The facade ( Read more... )

today is wednesday.. life is ok... and it will always be just that... I can't always say life sucks because there is someone out there that can out do you, no matter what it may be: money, talent, clothes, whatever.. so life will always just be "ok.." and Im ok with "ok." Ive learned that "ok" is my friend... God's greatest gift to man kind is "ok ( Read more... )

we went looking this weekend... I know what I want.... its beautiful.. its me.. its different.. www.robbinsbros.com Verragio 0362452 -- now lets see if he catches on!

wow it’s been a while.. life fly’s by when you keep yourself busy... I look at this and a whole year has passed.. the romance with Mike the change of jobs 2 or 3 times now... The drama of family.. the moving into a new apt with my best friend... and now its summer of 2008... lots has changed.. its my birthday.. not as big of deal as I felt it was ( Read more... )

Its been a while and of course its only depressing when something is recorded.. but eh... life is weird.. on the out side it seems to be the same and normal.. but inside everything seems to be falling apart. weird anxiety waking up every morning. never content. I miss being care free.. feeling stable. I miss someone holding me.. I miss my family.. ( Read more... )

I need a job..

So today is the first day of this of this crazy cleanse! I’m going to take pictures and weigh my self today so we can see how this all pans out. I drank my tea last night and this morning I drank my 2 bottles of the saline wash (sea sat and warm water.) Let me just tell you that, that shit is gross.. I wanted to gag. And the sad part about all ( Read more... )

A couple drove down a country road for several miles, not saying a word ( Read more... )

my heart hurts...

I havn't wrote in here in a long time.. and to be honest every time I come to post something... I look at my last entry and I walk away from my computer.. Ive moved on.. I know shes in a better place.. but its still such an empty feeling inside knowing that shes gone. for now this is what I have to say.. maybe my next entry will be more uplifting ( Read more... )