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Its been a while and of course its only depressing when something is recorded.. but eh... life is weird.. on the out side it seems to be the same and normal.. but inside everything seems to be falling apart. weird anxiety waking up every morning. never content. I miss being care free.. feeling stable. I miss someone holding me.. I miss my family.. I miss my friends.. Im only distracted long enough to forget, long enough to make it through the day.. but never long enough.. as I close my eyes every night the scare of how I will make it through another day sets in and keeps me up.. very little stress relief available now days... will tomorrow be different? when will it feel normal?