I often feel my restricting type AN isn't proactive enough. I have to wait for my body to burn the calories I'm not giving it, rather than purging them through exercise or puking. Perhaps because I'm not a 'good enough anorectic' I've never been driven to over-exercise apart from when starvation mania demands activity. I enjoy exercise, I just dont ( Read more... )

Wow, it's been a while longer than I realised since I posted here. Where did the year go ( Read more... )

I usually hate this collective dieting everyone does in January and the mass guilt trip about what we did in December. I don't even like to make resolutions. But I'm glad to be getting back in control of my consumption and re-stocking the fridge with nice, normal, safe foods. (Went shopping with the BF last week, his basket was full of beige food, ( Read more... )

Re-read Kate Chisholm's book, Hungry Hell. It's still one of the few ED memoirs I rate. I'd like to do a post some time about the articles online that irk me and those that I like. There's still a lot of dross and journalistic misunderstanding out there. Not that EDs are a subject that allow glib generalisation. I can think of thousands of truisms ( Read more... )

Todays damage...
Small bowl of cereal and skimed milk - 150
Cracker, pate, cheese - 200
Hot chocolate - 40
390 calories so far.
Mum's making soup for dinner which isn't bad, but I'm expected to have something with it. I'll see what I can do. Maybe a scrambled egg. Yeah, protein sounds good.

I cant remember how long I've been restricting for this ( Read more... )

I'm back on LJ because i need somewhere private to obsess about my disordered eating and to express myself freely. I have abandoned many journals over the years and been part of many communities. Mostly fangirl and eating disorder related ( Read more... )