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Life ATM
Well at least I was happy for awhile ( Read more... ) -
We Lost Those Memories -Chapter One ~
(nOOOOTES: The story is as accurate to their ages as I could get, but unfortunately I didn't want to write about their eventual debut in 2008, so it's going to be later. The reason for this is because I didn't want to write with 17 year old key, I wanted him older. Also, the concerts and such are probably not real. So some of the events are fiction ( Read more... ) -
So close to breaking point.
I feel like one more thing, one more trigger and I'm just going to snap. Cut all over my body, starve myself, cry, choke myself... I've been eyeing everything sharp and scratching myself with keys and plastic things and digging my nails into my skin and today I tested putting a cord against my throat. I don't want to die, I'm not going to kill ( Read more... ) -
If I Hadn't Been Saved, Short #2
Bitter cold seeped through my thin jacket as water slips through the cracks of an old wooden house. My footsteps caked the snow that was continuous falling in the woodland. My breath formed perfect clouds as my panting slowed, the ground finally leveling off.
Whenever I felt upset, I would run up the hill by my house and, 30 minutes away, I’d find ( Read more... ) -
If I left, Short #1
My fingers twitched as I awoke from my dream. A moment of silence passed before I let out my breath.
Why was I still living?
The pills were scattered in my bed and on the floor. Obviously they hadn’t been enough.
My eyes wandered over my possessions, to my clock. Almost noon. I had planned this event so that no one would be home until late that night ( Read more... ) -
I don't want to cut
To avoid cutting I'm trying to distract myself by recording why I want to in the first place. Although I feel like it'll be useless in the end ( Read more... ) -
Cutting
It's beginning to feel like LJ is a chore to write in. But I'm bored and I don't want to make another cut so..
I know Yuka and I aren't friends. I was so pushy when she was here but when I look back, I see now that I followed her blindly and she never let on that she felt the same friendship. It sucks.
And Meghan's going on about how she's so glad to ( Read more... ) -
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Ohhh boy this weekend’s gonna suck emotionally ( Read more... ) -
Depression sucks.
I'm having feels about inferiority tonight. I even splurged about it on my tumblr >< Sorry lovely tumblr followers who never talk to me...even on tumblr I'm an outcast.