I'm not updating this that much anymore. I'm using a paper journal more often. When I do update livejournal its gonna be mostly friends only. I'm really depressed and still fucked up in the head. I'm taking these drugs that give me so many side effects but they don't do what their supposed to do. I go to therapy that doesn't work either. This ( Read more... )

I exist.

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I was hospitalized for two weeks for being fucked up in the head. It was only two weeks but it felt as if it were months. I've been home for a few days already. I feel numb and that's what it's been since I got home. As soon as I got home I called Ari and light-heartidly said that I was fucked up in the head. She told me that I'm not fucked up ( Read more... )

I can't sleep. I was exhausted and went to bed early. I laid there for over an hour and couldn't fall asleep. I don't want to take any sleeping pills. I once got addicted to them and I don't want that happening again. I feel like crying and I can't anymore. I can't stop being depressed. I take pills that are supposed to make me not be like ( Read more... )

I'm still sick. It was worse last night than it was the night before. I was up for all of two nights in a row. ugh. Instead of just puking, I was sick from both ends. I slept all of today. I woke up once during the day when I wasn't that nauseous to take my medication. I feel a little bit better now. I'm still nauseous and I don't want to ( Read more... )

(1) Ever laughed at someone else's misfortune? (1 point) - yes ( Read more... )

I attempted to eat and just puked it up. ugh. I got sick from something I ate. I didn't figure out what yet. I was up from when I started feeling sick at 10 last night till 8 this morning. I slept until 6:30 this evening. I feel really icky. I'm drinking ginger tea for nausea. It doesn't seem to be helping. I feel like I'm gonna puke again ( Read more... )

i went to therapy yesterday. This isn't doing anything positive for me. This is like all the other ones I've tried out ( Read more... )

Evan needs to get up and call me. I didn't see him yet this weekend. I need sex.