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I'm still sick. It was worse last night than it was the night before. I was up for all of two nights in a row. ugh. Instead of just puking, I was sick from both ends. I slept all of today. I woke up once during the day when I wasn't that nauseous to take my medication. I feel a little bit better now. I'm still nauseous and I don't want to eat anything. I'm not just sick, I'm depressed. I'm more depressed than normal depression for me. I'm sick, that's why.
I talked to Ari on the phone this evening and she told me to think of things more positively. That's such an impossible task for me. I do nothing but complain about anything that I can complain about. I told her I would try. When I go on this thing I will say at least one positive thing per entry. I'm gonna think of things as "it could be worse". I could be as sick as I was during the night. I'm not anymore. I can think of a positive thing: Masturbating while I talk to Evan on the phone makes me less depressed. She also told me to make a list of things about SI that don't suck. This is silly but I know she's doing this to get me to be less negative. I have little faith in this working.
I talked to Ari on the phone this evening and she told me to think of things more positively. That's such an impossible task for me. I do nothing but complain about anything that I can complain about. I told her I would try. When I go on this thing I will say at least one positive thing per entry. I'm gonna think of things as "it could be worse". I could be as sick as I was during the night. I'm not anymore. I can think of a positive thing: Masturbating while I talk to Evan on the phone makes me less depressed. She also told me to make a list of things about SI that don't suck. This is silly but I know she's doing this to get me to be less negative. I have little faith in this working.