Three weeks ago I said I didn’t want to meet a guy. I wanted to be single, focus on myself, and not worry about trying to make a relationship with someone else work out. A week later I had already met another boy, and right now I am going through the same rollercoaster of emotions that I always seem to be in ( Read more... )

One of the things I hate about the gay lifestyle is the drama. I try to steer away from it as much as I can, but some people are so inclined to shove it in your face ( Read more... )

I’ve been a good boy this week. I’ve managed to drag my ass to the gym every day so far. I am going to try my best to go to the gym at least four times a week from now on. I want results. I’m focusing more on myself right now rather than trying to find a boy; well, trying my best anyways ( Read more... )

Yesterday I saw Dan. We went for a walk along English Bay and on Davie Street, and talked about random stuff and then important stuff. I couldn’t bring myself to tell him I didn’t want to be with him anymore right away ( Read more... )

This weekend turned out to be a bit different than expected. Right now I feel like I’m walking about with a little black cloud on top of my head, and I am not so sure that I should feel this way. I mean, things are going great in a way, aren’t they? Well I don’t know. Maybe someday I will look back at this time and laugh and think of how stupid I ( Read more... )

Things are going so weird right now. I almost wish I could just fall asleep for a few days and let everything get sorted out by itself. I wish I was stronger to make the right decisions, and I wish I had the gust to just say what I feel for once. I kinda also wish that I could peek into the future and see how things would work out if I made ( Read more... )

Yesterday was one eventful night. Went over to Paco’s house after work, had some drinks, then went to Celebrities to dance our little buns off, and went back to Paco’s to hang out more. It was a big group of people, as it was the last night that we’d get to go with Paco, since he goes back to Mexico on Thursday ( Read more... )

If someone had told me two years ago that I would have to make a choice between two (or more) guys sometime, I would have probably rolled my eyes in annoyance. Now it happens. How did I turn from the geeky, shy Claus who didn’t have the nerve to even smile at a guy, to the guy who now more and more people find attractive ( Read more... )

There have been a couple of times in my life when I have felt like I have found myself. I’ve felt like I learned everything there is to know and like I understand exactly what I want out of life. And then all of a sudden I grow more and realize that maybe I’m not as sure of where I stand as I’d like to be. And then I make decisions and continue to ( Read more... )

Today was the first day of work at the North Vancouver Visitor Information Centres. It’s been quite a bit of training in the past few weeks since I came back from Mexico, as well as a couple of Fam Trips, and a good night with Margaret and Meaghan at the beach drinking cheap wine, hehe ( Read more... )