She said she is going to marry me, regardless if I like it or not. Beauty in chaos I suppose.

This is by far the hardest time I have ever dealt with. Meaning keeping up appearances as if everything is okay is something I have never done. Waking up every day, wondering how I am going to get rent, wondering how I am going to pay for gas, even wondering how I am going to put food in my stomach. All while trying to make a new venture work in an ( Read more... )

I have pretty much spent my entire life doing things half ass'ed. All ego aside I have been so good at scamming and been smart enough to avoid hard work that I really haven't needed to. I have been coasting for almost 30 years with no real effort. Not to sound crass but I have had a good life doing it, that I do not deny or even regret. However, as ( Read more... )

We suffer because we have to
Without diffilculty there is only the inept
How many stories of greatness have come from the worst of times
The Great Depression, The War for Worlds
I can feel nothing but appreciation
Suffering, pain, abandonment
Resilience, power, speed and accuracy

Why is it that when one is willing to wait for an answer it never comes.
When one pays no attention an answer is whispered to a turned ear.
Why does it evade when one seeks.
Billions in the grave, not one with a name.
The fall colors stuck in a jar

Remember your lessons. That's the tick in the internal clock ( Read more... )

Another year older, none the wiser and just as lost.

It's quiet in the city and I am alone.

There once was a lovely girl who loved a boy who was stupid and immature. She loved him with no limit, no matter how at fault or arrogant he could be. Regardless of how poorly he treated her she still loved him with utmost stubbornness and open arms. Yet repeatedly he neglected her and often ignored her till she finally moved on with her life at ( Read more... )

Oh my chopper, my lovely lady.
Im sorry for ignoring you for far too long.
Everytime you forgive me but not without scolding.
Why do I keep abandoning and neglecting you?
I swear, this is the last time.
Well, until next time at least.