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I have pretty much spent my entire life doing things half ass'ed. All ego aside I have been so good at scamming and been smart enough to avoid hard work that I really haven't needed to. I have been coasting for almost 30 years with no real effort. Not to sound crass but I have had a good life doing it, that I do not deny or even regret. However, as I have been getting older I realized this is more of a curse then anything. This fire inside has been growing exponentially in the last decade, a desire to create with all my heart and passion. To be driven far beyond any determination that I have ever known. To put out a true dedicated desire and not cut any corners and look at my end product and smile knowing that I have done the very best my current talent allows. I have to fight 30 years of institutional inertia, a life of excessive waste movement and an instinct that tells me to go the path of least resistance. Every morning I now have to flip that switch from "there has to be an easier way" to "there has to be a BETTER way".