I've realized how out of focus I have been. Its made me rust and weaken.I need to prioritize once again and get things back on track.
1. get back in shape
2. get my finances in check
3. get on a regular schedule
4. not worry about the opposite sex.

Condemned to chase empty shadows
The gift of self awareness
The curse of the hollow
Running halls of distractions
Keeps fire from reaching zenith
Sedated are those that turn
Sorrow for he who stares
Abandonment comes with too much love
Only pity without
I'd rather fight alone
Then to face the path of foresaken

Ahhh anger, my old friend ( Read more... )

All I have left is anger, which suites me fine.

Here lies a man who very rarely feels guilt for a decision he has made. And while he can easily drown the feeling in a internal sea of numbness he would rather perfer not to. In some way or form he deserves the overwhelming alienating feeling of guilt. Maybe not deserve so much as earned. He can not abandon this feeling as easily as he has ( Read more... )

Ive decided that once my bike is done, im going to go find her. No matter where i have to go or how long it takes. And once i do find her, im going tell her exactly whats been bothering me for ten years and then turn around and go back home.

I ask that you not judge me, despite the fact that i know you will. You will if you have half a conscience, half a mind, half a brain. Tonight, I convinced a man to cheat on his fiancee. They had been dating for 6 years and to be married in just one month. I did not do it out of spite pursee, i did not do it out of lust though i wished i had, i did ( Read more... )

I saw the end of the world last night when I was dreaming. Its sheer size caused me to weep in awe. It was composed of fire and living corpses yet however intense it burned it was still dark and the bodies remained. The clouds hushed and trembled in fear. It twisted and turned much like my joy and fear. And as more of these cyclones of dystopia ( Read more... )

He likes her without make up ( Read more... )

Its quiet out right now, more quiet then i can bare. Even though I try not to doubt or question the journey, sometimes its rather painful. Thats all that 2008 seems to bring right now.