So I'm awake at... 3:40am because the a.c. isn't working right so its unbearably hot in the apartment right now. I was finally sleeping in the bed with just part of a sheet over me when I had a really horrifying dream: Dan and I were driving up this hill that was covered in ice. We had done it before so we didn't feel like anything would go wrong. ( Read more... )

So apparently we're not sure about the whole money thing. We aren't getting a new mattress. :( That makes me very upset. Dan and I fought last night and its still a little awkward for me... but I don't know. I guess it doesn't bother him. I stayed up really late last night upset and worried and hurt... but I guess you get over things. I finally ( Read more... )

I've lost about 3-4 pounds :) yay me! And Dan finally got paid today for the first time in I don't know when so I'm in a great mood. I'm gonna do this little question thing, go eat some lunch and be happy.

(X) been drunk
(X) kissed a member of the same sex
( ) crashed a friend's car
( ) been to Japan
( ) ridden in a taxi
(X) been in love
(X) been dumped
( ( Read more... )

Still looking for a new job. Any job that isn't crap and pays me decent. Who knew it would be such a pain in the ass? I'm tired of all the bullshit drama, the favoritism, the double standards, the nit-picking rules... everything. I just want to add a post it at the bottom of my resume that says:

"I will for for free for two weeks if you just hire me ( Read more... )

"Pretty and younger, but not any better off."

There's not much to write today. I'm just happy. Not satisfied, but that's probably a good thing. It'll keep me going in my life. Can't wait for tomorrow. Working out, looking for a new mattress, getting rid of some boxes that have been cluttering my car. Can't wait for Wednesday either. Getting my hair ( Read more... )

   Wow. I haven't been to this place in a long time. A God-awful long time. I'm not even sure I know how to do this anymore. No one will probably read this, but that's okay. I just want to get somethings out and maybe this is the best way to do this ( Read more... )

If anyone's actually going to see this, I just wanted to let you know that I'm moving to MySpace. I found out some stuff about Caleb - the main one being he was cheating on me with Rachel while we were dating - and I'm going to change. I'm going to be ME and I'm going to be HAPPY. I got my revenge without even knowing it - he's lost all of his ( Read more... )

I'm going to make an excruciatingly long story short and try to hold back the tears while doing so ( Read more... )

So much has happened since my last entry and I'm very sorry to everyone for not updating promptly ( Read more... )

The past week I have done the unimaginable. I told my doctor about my eating disorder. She seemed almost surprised, but also sympethetic and understanding. I made sure that there was no way my parents could find out about any of what I told her before I said a word. I had to rewrite some consent papers and now, even if I wanted her to, my docotr ( Read more... )