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Does it EVER get any easier?
So today I was doing my thing online, did a few searches and then i came across my mom's name, here is what was posted.
Sharon Kay Little, former sub mail carrier of Cheyenne died of a massive heart attack at her home in Cache, Oklahoma, Thursday, November 3, 1994. Burial was Tuesday, November 8, 1994 in Cache cemetery. Sharon was a rural carrier ( Read more... ) -
A poem I wrote a while ago...
I use this poem when I get down and sad. I wrote this from my heart and while deep in pain a few years back. You might ask why I chose to re-read something so sad. But it's to keep me in check when I am down about things going on in the present. As i look back at this poem, there were things I couldn't control happening. SO when I get upset about ( Read more... ) -
It's me and I'm still here!
Hey there! How goes it!? It has been a while since I have blogged. I need to start blogging daily like I used to. I love writing. So here I am. I'm back on ffnet, as well. I love being back there and writing. Why did i stop? I guess I got so caught up in the corportate world of work that I forgot what I really enjoyed, haha. So let's see how well I ( Read more... ) -
Writer's Block: Gender Bender
Do I want to be the opposite sex? um, heck no!!!! I don't knw what specifically it is that repels me from wanting to be the opposite sex but i can tell you I am so happy being me! Lol. i don't think being the opposite sex would be as fun, I am a girly girl and i love to dress up and I love colorful things so not being able to dress up like I do ( Read more... ) -
Writer's Block: Ghost Story
Yes, I beleive in them and have seen one. It was my mom's ghost after she died. Ok, I'm not nuts. But i looked over at my daughter, who at the time was like maybe 6 monthes (i was 18 mind you, i lost my mom at 17) and I saw my mom's face. I also have drifted to sleep in a vehicle and woke up to see her face in the rear view mirror. So, it wasn't ( Read more... ) -
its been 11 years yesterday since she died
So, this week has been total crap. And now it seems all hope is just lost. I can't even find any hopein me today. i am going to rant and rave until i turn blue in the face and fall over. at least i hope. So this house we're in is a big hole. A HELL HOLE. so we have to move back to a fucking apartment. you know, i don't know why it is that i even ( Read more... ) -
how sad but how true and it will make you think
You make the choice Don't look for a punch line. There isn't one. Read it anyway ( Read more... ) -
updates
Well, I'm still alive, just have been working crazy. Things seem to be improving on my end. Jazzy is doing well and we are into summer now and so me working nights has kinda gotten into a routine with the kids and it seems to be going allright. I'm happier working for Dell computers and its my ideal job, tho its quite stresssful at times since it ( Read more... ) -
no pain like seeing your child hurt...
Well today started out good. then Tiff came home carrying a hylserical Jazzmine. It was so sad. Her classmate and bestfriend died today of a brain tumor. Talk about stunned, upset and jsut lost. Yeah. Hard, very hard. She is so upset lost. It hurt worse whebn she told me she was the only one taken into the hall to be told by the cousnler while the ( Read more... ) -
hey alll
I just wanted to say i am stil alive and things are working well wiith said guy that i was so upset about, lol. Things are fine, just not been in a mood to writre much at all. Not only that, i came to the very conclusoiions i needd to in oreder to make some improtant desicions so i am much better. Still poor and struggling but i have such a better ( Read more... )