I grew up in a very drama heavy household. When you are the daughter of a bipolar alcoholic and a narcissistic personality disorder with OCD, you're not getting the drama free childhood package. Someone in our family was always screaming about something - insults, things not done 'right', the crisis of the moment. Everything was a Big Deal. ( Read more... )

Some college kid emailed me a while back (a year or so?) because she wanted her name removed from one of my LJ entries. Problem was that I a) couldn't find the entry in question and b) I didn't really care all that much. I wrote her back that she'd have to be more specific because I couldn't find the entry in question (it was a press release about ( Read more... )

Tonight
we don't have a lot to go on
but that's not how it lives in my head
no, not at all
blind times
thought we were matching weight
we pulled
sometimes it was you and sometimes it was me
but where are we
you say "don't take it all so hard for now
there's so much space
and there will always be later for that"




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Oh, for heaven's sakes... can't the internet stop being lame once in a while ( Read more... )

Apparently, yes, this is my position in our family. And frequently, elsewhere. I love to help people.. don't get me wrong. It is, after all, my calling in life. But sometimes, like tonight, it saddens me and drains me. If you know me at all or have read my journal at all, you know who Jolene is. She's my niece, who is like a sister to me, whom I ( Read more... )

involved disfunctional family stuff as usual ( Read more... )

Heh.. apparently miss Claire has been fine and well, moving on to be the potential betrayer in the lives of many more people. Seems to be a pattern with her, after all- first her friend Erin was no good, then it was us, now... who knows who's next? People like that make me sick. Aparently, she'll never change, and hopefully, as some form of karma, ( Read more... )

I opened my rarely used AIM to talk to Moonchilde and noticed Nomi was on, so I messaged her to tell her that her and Claire could have just come to play their characters and ignored me ( Read more... )

Nomi had the nerve to reply to Kara's post. Yet, lacked the guts to be mature and responsible about leaving, as did Claire. I despise falseness so much in people, damn their black hearts, both of them ( Read more... )

Well, the little bitch has finally done something to impress me. I hope she's proud. She's managed to sink to lower levels than even I thought her capable of ( Read more... )