Because I Want/Wanted To (part six)
Title: Because I Want/Wanted To (Part 6 of 6) (Story 3 of 7)
Rating: Pg 13
Pairing: Changmin/ Eun Sun (orginal character)
Summery: "Could I call you mine and could you call me yours?"....It's Valentine's Day, so now Kim Changmin has 24 hours to win the heart of the girl he loves. Will he succeed?
A/N: Sorry, I kind of fell asleep while proof reading... but now I am awake and it's still Tuesday soo... Enjoy the last part!
Story one found here (It's Yoosu)
Story two found here (It's Jaeho)
In the Past: one two three four five
Once I was in the bathroom, I grabbed the few cleaning products we had. I scrubbed the floor, scrubbed the shower, drenched the toilet in disinfectant spray (no way was I going to touch that thing with my hands directly... I swear the germs would be able to seep through my rubber gloves), and then I scrubbed the sink and then wiped down the little oval mirror above the sink. I then washed my hands about twelve, thirteen times. I don’t know how long we’ve had those rubber gloves, but the hole on the pinky and thumb fingers didn’t make me feel any cleaner or safer when using them. I really should buy Mom new ones... then again, all my money comes from my parents... so it’s like he’d be buying his own gloves... well, it’s the thought that counts anyway, right?
And then I was done, done with the bathroom, and done with my chores/punishment. FREE! I could do whatever I wanted to again. I was really glad that they went with this punishment and not the other. Speaking of the other... I went back into the living room and over to the computer to check my E - mail. I logged onto the computer... onto my instant messaging application. Almost everyone had an away message up. But I saw that Kyuhyun was available, which is good, because I have been meaning to ask him something.
Iheartfood16: Hey
Music4life: Hey
Iheartfood16: So how did that fanily thing go?
Music4life: What familt thing?
Iheartfood16: The family thing you told Ryeo about
Music4life: oh that, it’s nothing. everything is fine here
Iheartfood16: Kyu whats really going on
Iheartfood16: tell me.
Music4life: there’s nothinf going on
Iheartfood16: don’t lie!
Music4life: I’m not!
Iheartfood16: I know you don’t do homwork
Music4life: what
Music4life: ?????
Iheartfood16: before yousaid that you weredussing some homework with a teacher, earilertoday, we both know that’s a lie, so what os really going on
Music4life: Oh.
Iheartfood16: you can tell me
Music4life: It’s nothing really..don’t tell the others..it’s just ..I kinds seeing someone right now
Music4life: And I dont want anyone to know
Iheartfood16: really who?
Music4life: I cnat tell you
Iheartfood16: why
Music4life: I jsut can’t sry..i gtg
Music4life: later
He signed off then. So Kyuhyun has a secret lover, eh? I’ve got to tell Simba, maybe Kibum too, that kid is real smart, I bet he can figure out who it is. Wait, I can’t, Kyuhyun asked me not to tell anyone.
So I’ll only tell Simba. I read Siwon’s away message:
life couldn't get better....
cells on
What was he so happy about? I yawned then. Today was quite the day. Through all the drama, dancing, and cleaning, I’m surprised I’m still functioning. I signed off and put the computer back on “sleep” mode. I walked into my room and collapsed onto my bed. Just an hour or so was all I needed. Just a short nap to recharge.
I woke up to the phone ringing. Great, just as I finally fall asleep... but it’s suddenly so dark in my room. The phone stopped ringing, and I heard someone’s voice. I looked over at my digital clock.
11:23
WHAT!!!! How did it get so late!?
“Who was that!?” I heard Dad yell. So I guess Mom was on the phone.
The phone... OH MY GOD, I have a phone date with Eun Sun!!! I jumped out of bed and ran out of my room. Wait. Could I really call her this late? And what would I say, I can’t ask her out over the phone, according to some girl code that’s just embarrassing for a girl. But then what? I looked at the clock on the wall in the kitchen. 11:25. Why did it have to be a few minutes FASTER then my alarm clock? There was only thirty - five minutes left of Valentine’s Day. I had to get to her house, NOW! Mom or Dad or both, can give me a ride, they have to. In the name of love, they have to, for love’s sake, they have to, and they will, unless they want me to whine until their ears fall off. I ran into the living room. Gross, they’re all over each other now. I ran out of the living room and back into the kitchen. I guess they think I’m still sleeping or something. But still, once parents have kids, they shouldn’t be allowed to do that anymore. Though technically with my folks, that means they would of had to have stopped kissing like crazy at age four. And they didn’t even hook up until they were like twelve or something, so they already had kids for about tens years before they even started kissing each other, well, kissing THAT way anyway... But now is not the time to be thinking about weird family facts. Now is the time to take action.
If you were me, you’d do it too, right? If you had to see your love, you’d take the keys to your parents’ car and leave. Even though you're underaged, you’d still put the key in the ignition and take off, right? Well I did. I figured I had seen Mom and Dad drive enough times that I knew the basics. Plus, no one taught them how to drive, they figured it out on their own. So, if they could do it, so could I. I pulled out of the driveway, and headed towards Eun Sun’s house. I was glad there was no traffic on the way there because I wasn’t sure on how to work the turn signals, the switch that I though it was, ended up being the switch for the windshield wipers. I also couldn’t seem to make the car stay at one speed, it either kept creeping up and going too fast, or it would be so slow that I thought I wasn’t even moving. Plus it was still wintertime, so I was freezing. Since the car wasn’t warmed up enough yet, the heater wasn’t working, either that, or I was hitting the wrong button again.
By the time I arrived at Eun Sun’s house, I was both freezing and scared, for the car had now developed this weird hissing sound. As soon as I put the car in park, I shut it off and jumped out. The hissing sound was gone, but I still got as far away from the vehicle as possible. For it could still blow at any moment.
I now stood at the door to her house. This was it. It was now or never.
But what if it’s too late, what if she’s sleeping and her parents are mad that I am bugging them at this hour? Better not use the door. But then what? Oh, wait. I pulled out my phone. Calling might be too loud. So I sent her a text message. “Go outside -Min”, it said. I hope it doesn’t sound too creepy, I thought as I hit the send button. I bet I should have added “please”, or something. She’s not coming, I know it. Then again, she might not even get the message tonight. If her phone is off she won’t get it at all. I started pacing the shoveled sidewalk in front of her house. I hope she comes. I hope she comes. I hope she comes. WAIT. What am I going to say? I stopped pacing. I had made all these different plans throughout the day on how I was going to show her how much she meant to me, but now here I am with no plan, and I still have no clue on what to say.
She came out of the house then. I didn’t move as she waved and then made her way over to me.
“My gosh, Changmin, where is your coat, aren’t you freezing?” She asked. I looked down. I wasn’t cold. I guess that her presence must have warmed not only my heart, but my body as well. Either that, or I had just gone numb from head to toe.
“I should be.” I said. She just smiled and shook her head.
“So, what do you need to tell me that’s so important that you’re out here in the freezing cold, in the middle of the night?” She asked.
“Well... I... I don’t know how to say it.” She tilted her head.
“You’ve wanted to tell me something all day, right, but you still haven’t figured out how to say it?”
“Well, I wasn’t planning on telling you at first...”
“What were you going to do?”
“At first,” I had to think back to this morning. “The tissue, I was going to hand you a tissue.”
“A tissue?”
“Yeah, and then that didn’t work, so I was going to sing to you.”
“Why did you want to hand me a tissue? You wanted to sing to me?”
“Yes.”
“What song did you want to sing?”
“What song did I want to sing... I don’t remember.”
“Are you going to sing to me now?”
“Sing to you now?”
“Yeah. I figure since you didn’t call me, that whatever you need to say must be need to be done in person, or something, and most singing is done in person, right, not over the phone?”
“Right, it does need to be in person.” But singing, now? What do I sing? I felt nervous and yet at ease. I felt happy and yet so scared. I wanted to tell her how much she means to me, how much she has meant to me. Is there a song that can say all that? Probably not. Maybe I should just make one up off the top of my head. YEAH, THAT’LL WORK! “Okay, I’ll sing you something that I wrote just for you.”
“You wrote a song for me?”
“As I sing it, I’m writing it.” I explained.
“Oh I see.”
“Yup, ready?”
“Ready.” She said. I then closed my eyes, and prayed that the right words would come to me.
Dreaming to hold you in my lap
touch your cheek, make love (maybe I shouldn’t have revealed that much... oh well)
Everyday seeing you
you are out of reach
Your pouty lips and figure
I want it to be mine
This melody and rhythm are yours (I had no clue if I was making sense or not, but I just kept going)
Baby I, Baby I, Baby I, Baby I, Baby I
I am secretly in love with you
Baby I, Baby I, Baby I, Baby I, Baby I,
meeting you as a friend
Wont you try my love... ?
I stopped then. I think I had said enough. Maybe more then enough, for she was staring at me with her mouth open. She then shook her head.
“Wow Changmin, I had no idea that...”
“I’m sorry if I came on too strongly, what I really mean to say, in a less creepy way, is ... what I want to know is... could I call you mine, and could you call me yours?... I sound creepy again, right? Yeah, I bet that sounded really creepy too, you know what, maybe I should just leave and....” My words were cut off as she arched up on her toes, and kissed me.
“I was going to say, that I had no idea you were that perverted,” She said smirking. “Or that you felt that way, towards me.” She added seriously.
“Well I do, but why did you kiss me?”
“Because I wanted to.” She said.
“Wait, perverted, I’m not like that, really.”
“Can I kiss you again?”
“What?”
“Can I kiss you again?” She repeated, and my face split in two from the grin it was wearing. I understood her feelings now.
“If you want to.” I joked. So she did.
END (for now)
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On to the next story
Rating: Pg 13
Pairing: Changmin/ Eun Sun (orginal character)
Summery: "Could I call you mine and could you call me yours?"....It's Valentine's Day, so now Kim Changmin has 24 hours to win the heart of the girl he loves. Will he succeed?
A/N: Sorry, I kind of fell asleep while proof reading... but now I am awake and it's still Tuesday soo... Enjoy the last part!
Story one found here (It's Yoosu)
Story two found here (It's Jaeho)
In the Past: one two three four five
Once I was in the bathroom, I grabbed the few cleaning products we had. I scrubbed the floor, scrubbed the shower, drenched the toilet in disinfectant spray (no way was I going to touch that thing with my hands directly... I swear the germs would be able to seep through my rubber gloves), and then I scrubbed the sink and then wiped down the little oval mirror above the sink. I then washed my hands about twelve, thirteen times. I don’t know how long we’ve had those rubber gloves, but the hole on the pinky and thumb fingers didn’t make me feel any cleaner or safer when using them. I really should buy Mom new ones... then again, all my money comes from my parents... so it’s like he’d be buying his own gloves... well, it’s the thought that counts anyway, right?
And then I was done, done with the bathroom, and done with my chores/punishment. FREE! I could do whatever I wanted to again. I was really glad that they went with this punishment and not the other. Speaking of the other... I went back into the living room and over to the computer to check my E - mail. I logged onto the computer... onto my instant messaging application. Almost everyone had an away message up. But I saw that Kyuhyun was available, which is good, because I have been meaning to ask him something.
Iheartfood16: Hey
Music4life: Hey
Iheartfood16: So how did that fanily thing go?
Music4life: What familt thing?
Iheartfood16: The family thing you told Ryeo about
Music4life: oh that, it’s nothing. everything is fine here
Iheartfood16: Kyu whats really going on
Iheartfood16: tell me.
Music4life: there’s nothinf going on
Iheartfood16: don’t lie!
Music4life: I’m not!
Iheartfood16: I know you don’t do homwork
Music4life: what
Music4life: ?????
Iheartfood16: before yousaid that you weredussing some homework with a teacher, earilertoday, we both know that’s a lie, so what os really going on
Music4life: Oh.
Iheartfood16: you can tell me
Music4life: It’s nothing really..don’t tell the others..it’s just ..I kinds seeing someone right now
Music4life: And I dont want anyone to know
Iheartfood16: really who?
Music4life: I cnat tell you
Iheartfood16: why
Music4life: I jsut can’t sry..i gtg
Music4life: later
He signed off then. So Kyuhyun has a secret lover, eh? I’ve got to tell Simba, maybe Kibum too, that kid is real smart, I bet he can figure out who it is. Wait, I can’t, Kyuhyun asked me not to tell anyone.
So I’ll only tell Simba. I read Siwon’s away message:
life couldn't get better....
cells on
What was he so happy about? I yawned then. Today was quite the day. Through all the drama, dancing, and cleaning, I’m surprised I’m still functioning. I signed off and put the computer back on “sleep” mode. I walked into my room and collapsed onto my bed. Just an hour or so was all I needed. Just a short nap to recharge.
I woke up to the phone ringing. Great, just as I finally fall asleep... but it’s suddenly so dark in my room. The phone stopped ringing, and I heard someone’s voice. I looked over at my digital clock.
11:23
WHAT!!!! How did it get so late!?
“Who was that!?” I heard Dad yell. So I guess Mom was on the phone.
The phone... OH MY GOD, I have a phone date with Eun Sun!!! I jumped out of bed and ran out of my room. Wait. Could I really call her this late? And what would I say, I can’t ask her out over the phone, according to some girl code that’s just embarrassing for a girl. But then what? I looked at the clock on the wall in the kitchen. 11:25. Why did it have to be a few minutes FASTER then my alarm clock? There was only thirty - five minutes left of Valentine’s Day. I had to get to her house, NOW! Mom or Dad or both, can give me a ride, they have to. In the name of love, they have to, for love’s sake, they have to, and they will, unless they want me to whine until their ears fall off. I ran into the living room. Gross, they’re all over each other now. I ran out of the living room and back into the kitchen. I guess they think I’m still sleeping or something. But still, once parents have kids, they shouldn’t be allowed to do that anymore. Though technically with my folks, that means they would of had to have stopped kissing like crazy at age four. And they didn’t even hook up until they were like twelve or something, so they already had kids for about tens years before they even started kissing each other, well, kissing THAT way anyway... But now is not the time to be thinking about weird family facts. Now is the time to take action.
If you were me, you’d do it too, right? If you had to see your love, you’d take the keys to your parents’ car and leave. Even though you're underaged, you’d still put the key in the ignition and take off, right? Well I did. I figured I had seen Mom and Dad drive enough times that I knew the basics. Plus, no one taught them how to drive, they figured it out on their own. So, if they could do it, so could I. I pulled out of the driveway, and headed towards Eun Sun’s house. I was glad there was no traffic on the way there because I wasn’t sure on how to work the turn signals, the switch that I though it was, ended up being the switch for the windshield wipers. I also couldn’t seem to make the car stay at one speed, it either kept creeping up and going too fast, or it would be so slow that I thought I wasn’t even moving. Plus it was still wintertime, so I was freezing. Since the car wasn’t warmed up enough yet, the heater wasn’t working, either that, or I was hitting the wrong button again.
By the time I arrived at Eun Sun’s house, I was both freezing and scared, for the car had now developed this weird hissing sound. As soon as I put the car in park, I shut it off and jumped out. The hissing sound was gone, but I still got as far away from the vehicle as possible. For it could still blow at any moment.
I now stood at the door to her house. This was it. It was now or never.
But what if it’s too late, what if she’s sleeping and her parents are mad that I am bugging them at this hour? Better not use the door. But then what? Oh, wait. I pulled out my phone. Calling might be too loud. So I sent her a text message. “Go outside -Min”, it said. I hope it doesn’t sound too creepy, I thought as I hit the send button. I bet I should have added “please”, or something. She’s not coming, I know it. Then again, she might not even get the message tonight. If her phone is off she won’t get it at all. I started pacing the shoveled sidewalk in front of her house. I hope she comes. I hope she comes. I hope she comes. WAIT. What am I going to say? I stopped pacing. I had made all these different plans throughout the day on how I was going to show her how much she meant to me, but now here I am with no plan, and I still have no clue on what to say.
She came out of the house then. I didn’t move as she waved and then made her way over to me.
“My gosh, Changmin, where is your coat, aren’t you freezing?” She asked. I looked down. I wasn’t cold. I guess that her presence must have warmed not only my heart, but my body as well. Either that, or I had just gone numb from head to toe.
“I should be.” I said. She just smiled and shook her head.
“So, what do you need to tell me that’s so important that you’re out here in the freezing cold, in the middle of the night?” She asked.
“Well... I... I don’t know how to say it.” She tilted her head.
“You’ve wanted to tell me something all day, right, but you still haven’t figured out how to say it?”
“Well, I wasn’t planning on telling you at first...”
“What were you going to do?”
“At first,” I had to think back to this morning. “The tissue, I was going to hand you a tissue.”
“A tissue?”
“Yeah, and then that didn’t work, so I was going to sing to you.”
“Why did you want to hand me a tissue? You wanted to sing to me?”
“Yes.”
“What song did you want to sing?”
“What song did I want to sing... I don’t remember.”
“Are you going to sing to me now?”
“Sing to you now?”
“Yeah. I figure since you didn’t call me, that whatever you need to say must be need to be done in person, or something, and most singing is done in person, right, not over the phone?”
“Right, it does need to be in person.” But singing, now? What do I sing? I felt nervous and yet at ease. I felt happy and yet so scared. I wanted to tell her how much she means to me, how much she has meant to me. Is there a song that can say all that? Probably not. Maybe I should just make one up off the top of my head. YEAH, THAT’LL WORK! “Okay, I’ll sing you something that I wrote just for you.”
“You wrote a song for me?”
“As I sing it, I’m writing it.” I explained.
“Oh I see.”
“Yup, ready?”
“Ready.” She said. I then closed my eyes, and prayed that the right words would come to me.
Dreaming to hold you in my lap
touch your cheek, make love (maybe I shouldn’t have revealed that much... oh well)
Everyday seeing you
you are out of reach
Your pouty lips and figure
I want it to be mine
This melody and rhythm are yours (I had no clue if I was making sense or not, but I just kept going)
Baby I, Baby I, Baby I, Baby I, Baby I
I am secretly in love with you
Baby I, Baby I, Baby I, Baby I, Baby I,
meeting you as a friend
Wont you try my love... ?
I stopped then. I think I had said enough. Maybe more then enough, for she was staring at me with her mouth open. She then shook her head.
“Wow Changmin, I had no idea that...”
“I’m sorry if I came on too strongly, what I really mean to say, in a less creepy way, is ... what I want to know is... could I call you mine, and could you call me yours?... I sound creepy again, right? Yeah, I bet that sounded really creepy too, you know what, maybe I should just leave and....” My words were cut off as she arched up on her toes, and kissed me.
“I was going to say, that I had no idea you were that perverted,” She said smirking. “Or that you felt that way, towards me.” She added seriously.
“Well I do, but why did you kiss me?”
“Because I wanted to.” She said.
“Wait, perverted, I’m not like that, really.”
“Can I kiss you again?”
“What?”
“Can I kiss you again?” She repeated, and my face split in two from the grin it was wearing. I understood her feelings now.
“If you want to.” I joked. So she did.
END (for now)
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On to the next story