Love Does not make the world go round, but it does make it worth living. I am completely and utterly understanding that life is so messed up and what i want in life doesnt mean i should get it or deserve it...some say i dont deserve her, some say ill find another, but prove it, maybe im not letting anyone else in, maybe i am too stubborn to realize ( Read more... )

My subject is so unsurprising it isnt even funny eh, Duh. Anyways ive realized more than ever the potential, confidence, strength, and versatility of her. Im gonna say good and bad things tonight and i hope when Brie reads this some day it wont be in her bad books. For one, im happy for her shes growing up and i am proud of her...no matter how ( Read more... )

Emailing Chris got a lot off my chest...i dont need anyone thinking im an asshole to anyone in which i didnt mean to be at the time and everyone makes mistakes. Not saying mine should earn an apology, just needing to be sraightened out. My decisions were not aimed at Brie, but me. I thought my feelings for her would disappear since i thought she ( Read more... )

ok so im a lair. I do need to talk about Brie, more than usual. Maybe its because i care and think more about her than anyone else in this world. Is that so hard to put up with. I dont think so. I just want to create this romantic little simple life with us and its falling to pieces in my mind faster than ever. Ive never given up so quickly about ( Read more... )

I had a night and a half, made the bar to stay open till 3:30 then stayed up early enough to watch a sunrise completely hammered with Brett and Kara. Havent hung out with them much lately. Bar was busy last night, even when something like drinking heavy and being with friends should kinda clear my head, i just wondered all night if Brie would like ( Read more... )

What a day i am so tired and i gotta work tomorrow. It really helped that i seen dave tongiht tho and hung out i needed to see someone to talk to. Dave always listens when im really confused about something. I sent back the ring to get fixed to, candice was jealous about me having it, so i jokingly told her she could have it till it gets sent away ( Read more... )

My Day was slow, too slow and im tired but at the same time i have so much to do, just like everyday. Mikes gone to Carnduff Grad, and im alone and stinky. Im kinda sick of being unhappy so im gonna just hang in there one day at a time. I checked on my days off i have booked. July 29 - August 25, but since July 27 is a friday i should be free for ( Read more... )

The world stopped for a minute there, k so i care so much about her, but dont know if i should tell her i love her cause i dont think she wants that, i will wait for as long as she wants me too, ive never loved someone enough for that and i wish i could just see her smile and laugh with me again, that was the best part, making her unbelievably ( Read more... )

If I Could Start Again, I would keep myself, I would find a way. You could have it all. My Empire Of Dirt. I will let you down. I will make you hurt. I am the most ignorant person on this planet, i would completely understand if i was left alone in this cold dark world. I made HUGE mistakes in the last 2 years of my life and i just wish i new from ( Read more... )

Sore back, sore arms, sore legs, i just said fuck work for today, to tired and sore, and not from anything fun either, just too much lifting and standing on concrete, i want to go somewhere warm, im sick of the cold and work and life, just need a little break away from life, but i cant and i know i wont. Saving money is so important right now, but ( Read more... )