calmed down
What a day i am so tired and i gotta work tomorrow. It really helped that i seen dave tongiht tho and hung out i needed to see someone to talk to. Dave always listens when im really confused about something. I sent back the ring to get fixed to, candice was jealous about me having it, so i jokingly told her she could have it till it gets sent away. I am starting to get into a better mood and realize that life is not always rainbows and butterflies, but i cant help but wonder if Brie will come back to me, i hope so cause i have been letting on to people that she is, just because people are wondering. Shes so calm about this and its kinda disappointing to see that, cause it means it doesnt bother her that im confused and sad and hurting....and in a way i dont feel loved right now at all, she said she loved me but was in love with Chris, well hes got the upper hand on this one so of course im jealous and mad about it. I understand when she said that she used to need me, but now shes grown more confident and doesnt know if she needs or wants me so that hurt a lot too. I Hope she knows i miss her. I also realized that this whole time apart might actually damage us not letting each other in could ruin us, but the space apart could strengthen us, so who knows, like i said b4 destiny and fate have the answers and ive decided to calm down and wait and see, cause lets face it im waiting for her, not the other way around. I wanna know if shes coming back tho, cause then i wouldnt feel like im lying when i mention that She May Be moving in, in the fall. I just dont want to disappoint anyone. I guess in my own mind if i think it, it gives me something to look forward to. I have to go to sleep. omg i am dead tired. goodnight