The World Turns, Life Awaits
I had a night and a half, made the bar to stay open till 3:30 then stayed up early enough to watch a sunrise completely hammered with Brett and Kara. Havent hung out with them much lately. Bar was busy last night, even when something like drinking heavy and being with friends should kinda clear my head, i just wondered all night if Brie would like to be there. I thik she woulda had fun, since this crowd of friends was a little more tamer and a little more normal than the usual crazies. im not gonna talk about us as much tho on here, i think she has got my point that i love her more than she knows, but its what she wants to not mention us so i think it is fair not to ramble on about the same stuff over and over again, and still bring it up from time to time, but not everyday. i think she would agree. ive still been telling people that she might move down, shes not certain so neither am i. I wish she would just know cause then i woudnt be down and i would just either get over her and have a fun summer, or make it worth her while when she gets here while knowing that she wants to give me that chance at love again. Thats the confusing part, since i cant see her for a while. I am desperatly trying to include myself in her life, but its turning bad so ill quit, but i am still wanting to go golfing with her bro Kyle. Hes always gonna be like that little brother to me and hes fun to hang around with. an i think he looks up to me which is a great feeling in itself. In a way i look up to him to. when i was his age my sister was like Brie, and i know what its like to have a sister who at times wants to be there for you and loves you, but then gets annoyed by you, so concludes my point sister (girls in general) at that age are weird......jkjkjkjkjk. They just feel this huge responsibily is coming, and they get way to worked up about it. I hope that if brie moves here she gets more laid back, actually in this town how can you not. Cheryl used to be laid back here, but she needed that clusterfuck runaround crazy lifestyle. I just wanna stay laid bac in this town and relax and when im old and tired i dont have to look back and realized i was to rushed all through life and it was a waste of time to worry about everything. That would suck. Gotta get some food