I'm feeling myself slowly getting depressed.
I feel glum, and totally unfunny, and that's the worst feeling for me.

I had a baby.


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I'm not making a Facebook announcement or anything until Monday the 19th or sometime around then, so it's still kind of under wraps, but...I figure I never ever update this and I don't think anyone even reads it, so why not?

As of Tuesday the 20th, I will be two months pregnant!

Yep! It still blows my mind. We have our first ultrasound on Monday the ( Read more... )

 So...We're having a bit of money stress ( Read more... )

 This is really important to my sister and myself, so I wanted to share it:

I was at the gym tonight working out, and I few times I saw a young girl working out as hard as I. When I went into the sauna the young girl walked in a few minutes after me, she smiled at me. One of the most innocent smiles I have seen in a long time. a genuine, kind, wide ( Read more... )

 I kind of really want a motor bike.

 Well! I decided not to go to grad school...at least not now or for a while...maybe not ever...
That's my final and happy decision! The financial business of grad school is insane.

1. I'm not sure I want to/could teach
2. By the time I get out, we'll have my undergrad student loans, James's undergrad student loans, his graduate student loans, AND my ( Read more... )

 How do I even decide between a 2-3 year MFA programme and having a baby next year (which would mean putting grad school off for about 10 years).

I hate this decision making bull shit.

 damn it! damn it! DAMN IT!  all i wanted to do was to get james something super great for his birthday and actually have it be i don't know...a surprise! he's always guessing his gifts and shit like that. he saw what i was going to get him. DAMN IT ALL!

 I'm married! More later!