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many thanks
Wow, encouragement goes a long way. I was feeling pleased but exhausted from riding out my triggered state last night, which was topped off with a 2am nightmare...but receiving support from my lj friends really gives me strength. i felt like my energy had been sapped, and that feeling continued well into today, but then i read some supportive ( Read more... ) -
managing triggers
So i've always been interested in watching a Clockwork Orange but have for years refrained from an attempt due to being wise about triggers. Thought i might be able to handle it tonight ( Read more... ) -
10 things i hate
- cheating in relationships
- feeling hideous
- depression
- not having a place to go for holidays
- finding myself in a place where i don't belong
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10 Things I love
- being in love.
- indulging in a simple pleasure, like a chocolate bar, or being at a park, or pretty underwear
- writing something and feeling like i really expressed myself well
- being appreciated, and knowing it
- being affectionate, and having it received well
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10 Things About Me
I'm having to confront a lot of unsavory things,about me. Things that i don't like about myself, reasons that I'm not the person I want to be. Facing these things is uncomfortable, but it sets me on the right path.
I am afraid of some things, and I give these things power over me. I'm afraid of being myself with certain people. Even though I'd like ( Read more... ) -
Writer's Block: Do you remember?
i have some potty training memories. sitting on a little training potty and watching adults going about their usual business. -
aww nightmare
i had the most terrifying dream last night. My dad wasn't physically hurting me, but he hurting all of my family members to manipulate me into staying with him. It was awful, i ran away and the next time i saw one of my siblings one side of his face was beaten to a pulp, and he just looked at me with the most hollow eyes, and i knew he had endured ( Read more... ) -
lazy sunday grapes and positivity
i just had another wonderful cheese-and-cracker breakfast, and now i am going to fill myself with grapes. Yes, this is worthy of a journal entry ( Read more... ) -
mmm burritos
burritos today! mmm!
i feel like watching 28 Days/Weeks Later.
i can't wait for when it is no longer a punishment to walk outside.
i see my therapist tomorrow! whoohoo! looking forward to it.
considering an impromptu mini vacay...all over it. -
Yikes
just had a bad panic attack, it's almost 5am and i have work in just a few hours. Even though it's going to be a full day, for some reason i've talked myself into believing thursdays are somehow gloriously short, even though it's just because wednesdays tend to be hella long ( Read more... )