Yikes
just had a bad panic attack, it's almost 5am and i have work in just a few hours. Even though it's going to be a full day, for some reason i've talked myself into believing thursdays are somehow gloriously short, even though it's just because wednesdays tend to be hella long.
i kept my cool for the most part, as much of a cool as can be kept when you're panicked into getting dressed and physically leaving the house at 4:30am to lock yourself in your car and talking to a woman on a hotline.
i don't know if i can go to sleep. i feel tired enough to, but the panicky feeling is still in my chest and i worry that if i lay down it'll get worse. my thoughts have been typically turning against me in those falling asleep moments when they're all i have left to face.
i kept my cool for the most part, as much of a cool as can be kept when you're panicked into getting dressed and physically leaving the house at 4:30am to lock yourself in your car and talking to a woman on a hotline.
i don't know if i can go to sleep. i feel tired enough to, but the panicky feeling is still in my chest and i worry that if i lay down it'll get worse. my thoughts have been typically turning against me in those falling asleep moments when they're all i have left to face.