i can say i hope it will be worth what i give up

[carina_red]

i think i am loosing it. i just don't even know.... it took all of my strength to not basically sob all the way home today. i definitely teared up for a good portion of the walk though. tears of anger and frustration. tears of sadness. tears of pain. sigh. god. i swear i am having a break down or something

Comments

[kathkelch]

I think it's all about balance. It's okay to feel angry or pissed off. But there should be something you can do, or someone you can be around, or somewhere you can go, that calms you down.

It's really hard when the emotion just doesn't go away. I know.

For me, I have to take deliberate actions to fight back the bad emotions. Sometimes I have to force myself to do things out of the ordinary. Like call up my sister out of the blue. Or go for a walk somewhere. Right after my breakup, I refused to let myself be home alone because I knew that's when it hurt the most. I was still sad, but forcing myself to be around other people really helped.

I mentioned it before, but this book is good for helping explore negative thoughts, to put them into words, and then break them down until you can see them objectively.
http://www.amazon.com/Feeling-Good-Handbook-David-Burns/dp/0452281326

[carina_red]

thanks for all your support kate. i <3 you.

[kathkelch]

xoxo

[mandeebee]

You should come over. We can play rock band and complain about stupid work...call me!