i can say i hope it will be worth what i give up
i think i am loosing it. i just don't even know.... it took all of my strength to not basically sob all the way home today. i definitely teared up for a good portion of the walk though. tears of anger and frustration. tears of sadness. tears of pain. sigh. god. i swear i am having a break down or something.
the think the major problem is that i can't seem to put into words what the problem is! (although, i am sure it is more then one problem.) work is certainly a huge contributor. i was talking to a friend, and he was like, if work sucks you can deal with it. if your personal life is crappy you can deal with it, but if they are both shitty, that's when it's hard to deal. he is SO right. work is tipping me over the edge right now. wanna know what happened today? well, let me tell you!
my boss called me AT WORK AT 6:15 in the morning, to not only tell me she wasn't coming in for the day, but a new person was coming in at 9 to be trained... for the deli side, and if i could train her that'd be great. oh, and p.s. i know you've NEVER made the stuff on the deli side, but if you could try to get the breakfast burritos and the breakfast croissants out, that would be great. you know, cos it's not like you have all the bakery stuff to do too or anything. really? are you kidding me? oh, and if you get the chance go ahead and call shannon and tell her to come in early, even though she has to close tonight. wow. awesome. i don't even have words for it actually. WHO FUCKING DOES THAT?! oh, and the reason she wasn't coming in to work? she was tired. i shit you not. i am moments away from snapping. this is how people end up on top of clock towers. i swear it is.
i don't even want to discuss my wrists right now. i am so sick of taking ibuprofen. it is killing my stomach. (and probably my liver!)
the think the major problem is that i can't seem to put into words what the problem is! (although, i am sure it is more then one problem.) work is certainly a huge contributor. i was talking to a friend, and he was like, if work sucks you can deal with it. if your personal life is crappy you can deal with it, but if they are both shitty, that's when it's hard to deal. he is SO right. work is tipping me over the edge right now. wanna know what happened today? well, let me tell you!
my boss called me AT WORK AT 6:15 in the morning, to not only tell me she wasn't coming in for the day, but a new person was coming in at 9 to be trained... for the deli side, and if i could train her that'd be great. oh, and p.s. i know you've NEVER made the stuff on the deli side, but if you could try to get the breakfast burritos and the breakfast croissants out, that would be great. you know, cos it's not like you have all the bakery stuff to do too or anything. really? are you kidding me? oh, and if you get the chance go ahead and call shannon and tell her to come in early, even though she has to close tonight. wow. awesome. i don't even have words for it actually. WHO FUCKING DOES THAT?! oh, and the reason she wasn't coming in to work? she was tired. i shit you not. i am moments away from snapping. this is how people end up on top of clock towers. i swear it is.
i don't even want to discuss my wrists right now. i am so sick of taking ibuprofen. it is killing my stomach. (and probably my liver!)