As I'm sure you all know by now, I didn't get in to University of Washington. To say I am devastated would be the understatement of the century. I feel like I am now floating aimlessly with out a plan or goal. I just can't shake the sadness from it. I have already started forming a new plan. I have a new M.O. and all that, but I just feel like I've ( Read more... )

it was a good day today. (obviously, you know, since i didn't use my A.K. and all!) i think i have really calmed down a lot, and work was even enjoyable. well, for the most part! it isn't really all that enjoyable to be at work at 6am, but what are you gonna do ( Read more... )

i have calmed down significantly. i just used the words of the mighty joe and decided to turn my anger into a power for something positive, and not just be an emotional wreck for the rest of the day (week, month, whatever!) it wasn't the easiest task on the planet, but i did what i could! i am still a little angry about what happened, but it isn't ( Read more... )

i think i am loosing it. i just don't even know.... it took all of my strength to not basically sob all the way home today. i definitely teared up for a good portion of the walk though. tears of anger and frustration. tears of sadness. tears of pain. sigh. god. i swear i am having a break down or something ( Read more... )

i miss berlin. i really feel like i need to get out of santa cruz. i feel like i am slipping away here. i don't know if that makes sense, but... well i don't know i can describe it any other way. it's weird. i am happy to be around all the people that i love and things like that, i just don't feel happy here. other then people (which i KNOW is a ( Read more... )