I just have to keep telling myself that. I've made it through really hard stuff in my life, and I can make it through this. This week has just been an awful week...starting with Saturday night and hopefully ending with tomorrow. I wish I could just let go and talk about everything that's bothering me, but I can't, because I'd be hurting people ( Read more... )

I've decided something...I'm done trying to make things right or to please other people because you know what? I'm always the one who ends up getting hurt. So I'm finished.

Oh, well. I was refreshed all morning from getting to sleep in, but now I'm just pooped. Lunch was...awkward...to say the least. I sat at a table with David, but we probably said two words to each other throughout the entire meal. He''s probably mad at me for one reason or another. Grr...he's such an asshole sometimes. Anyway, my stress level ( Read more... )

Well, I had a long talk tonight which alleviates some of my stress. But is it really all gone? Am I really relieved by the decision that we came to? I don't know. I honestly don't know. Sure, the waiting was a lot of the stress, and I was glad once I knew, but are those feelings still there? I think they are. But hey, what can I do about it ( Read more... )

OK, that last journal entry was a little...um...un-controlled? Yeah...well, I'm more controlled now. Notice when the entry started going into caps? Yeah, that was when I started physically getting into a fight with my brother. That added to my amount of stress. I mean, I really shouldn't have to be going through all of the stuff that I am ( Read more... )

I have so much stress right now, it's not even funny. It didn't look like it, but when Tim came and visited me, I was about to burst. And for huge, monumental, unspeakable reasons. And I don't want to deal with any FUCKING THING ANYMORE!!! I JUST WANT TO GET OUT OF THIS FUCKING HOUSE AND AWAY FROM ALL OF THIS SHIT!!! Excuse me while I go cry ( Read more... )

I was really stressed today. I mean really stressed. And I know parts of why I was, but the other parts are just because I was in a really bad mood and I don't really know why. I was just in an all-around bad mood today. And I was getting to that breaking point during drama club. Jeff stole a part of Amelia and my dance for his and that just ( Read more... )