Explanation Time
OK, that last journal entry was a little...um...un-controlled? Yeah...well, I'm more controlled now. Notice when the entry started going into caps? Yeah, that was when I started physically getting into a fight with my brother. That added to my amount of stress. I mean, I really shouldn't have to be going through all of the stuff that I am right now...high school is supposed to be a fun, happy time. You aren't supposed to get this stressed and have anxiety attacks and want to start sobbing because something doesn't turn out the way you want it to. Or is it? Is it really gonna get harder as I get older? God, I hope not. Because if life is already Hell right now, then I don't want to see what's going to happen further on down the road. Listen, no one has to feel sorry for me. There's just a lot of shit that I have to sort through. You know, feelings to figure out, people to talk to, situations to assess, and everything like that. Thanks to those of you who have given a hug here and there, extended a hand, and lended an ear to listen. I love you all so much, I'm just under a lot of pressure right now. So just try to be understanding even though I may not want to open up and talk about it. It's just hard to talk to certain people, you know? And I really don't want to hurt anyone by telling them that I don't want to talk about it...there are just some people that understand a little better and know what it is that I'm feeling right now. So I love you all and I hope your lives are a lot better than mine right now. (((((((()))))))))