i got the job at the boat club. i start the day after i get back from florida 4 til close. this is the last good news i will ever post here. the last post. its been a good time having this journal. it helped me find things out and express myself. my next journal will be undisclosed. i am not joining rotc next year for reason i don't feel like ( Read more... )

i've decided i'm done. so i gotta collect new rank from the begining to make a medal case. i think i'll keep my ribbons. but whatever. it don't matter. i won't at least. hehehehe. i've broken free of one thing and it leads to mass rebellion. god i feel great. i've been playing my hockey and i need to rotate/replace my wheels before i play again. i ( Read more... )

i had another revalation today. and it is another negative one. everything is pointless. worry, envy, want, need, everything. including this lj. what an ironic thing. its all pointless and useless.

the waltz is a very old dance that consist of three beats. those beats can be described as war, love, and peace. the play in an endless cycle until the song ends. i have heard once that it can be described as the way human life goes. before i leave i decided to read all my friends journals. to be blunt, it is an endless waltz. it pisses me off. one ( Read more... )

i'm so evil its funny. i just made a t-shirt design to make fun of mr. fine. hahahahahahaha. so eventually i'll put it on a t-shirt. but until then.

I woke at 0500 this morning because we had the March of Dimes for ROTC. what fun that was. all the higher SNCOs minus one, were bitching that the gunnys don't pull enough weight. well fuck you, we pull more than you know. we just do it faster and better so you hate us. but what can i say, we were always better. and your afraid of what we can do. ( Read more... )

i can walk away. i love it. so tomorrow when the gunner tells me i am not on the final inspection colorguard i'm gonna laugh and say that i didn't want to do it anyway. and i am feeling so good that i can forget things that i never thought i could. like the way i feel. so from this day on i am not gonna care how people see me. if it embarasses you ( Read more... )

thats it. sick. so i don't have to go to fucking practice. so if i'm sick, i won't have to deal with kulp. lol. and i am sick. i'm sick of rotc. i just found one of my hobbies again. all because i had free time away from rotc. oh yeah. but i broke my hockey stick. so i need to get a new one.

i can't sleep. i think to much when i lie down. i think of things that might happen. i think of things i don't want to happen. i think of things i wish could happen. but nothing is ever gonna happpen. i just think it is so i lose sleep over it. while sitting here i went through all my old post. i cared a lot about this one person. but i am getting ( Read more... )

hahahahahahahahahaha. the flyers advanced. they beat the devils. i'm not gonna go to adam's party because its late and my parents will suspect something. so i'm gonna go hang out with jen. theres nothing else to do. btu yes. hahahahahahahahaha. they are still in.